Okay, well I'm not usually one to bitch about my problems, but I'm feeling pretty shitty right now, so I'll try venting and see if it helps. I'm aware my life isn't nearly as bad as many other people have it, so I'm sorry for complaining. I just need to get these feelings off my chest.
Well when I was about 2 or 3 my parents got divorced. I know, that's not nothing. But then, when I was 11 I lost my sister to a heroin overdose. 2 years after that my dad who I loved more than anything committed suicide. I didn't know what to do, but luckily enough, my good friends were there for me. Unfortunately my crazy mother decides to move me, my sister, and my stepdad halfway across the country.
Now I have another sister and brother who I rarely get to see on account they did not move with us. My mom doesn't understand me in the slightest, and is always trying to change me, especially my beliefs. My sister is just as crazy as my mom, and my stepdad doesn't even speak English. I've lived with him for 7 years and I still feel awkward whenever I try to communicate with him. He also treats my mom terribly, and yells at her for mistakes he himself makes.
I'm 15 years old and I want nothing more for highs school to end. I currently have no friends. I think it's the fact that I had a great life, makes me more depressed and more fixed on the past. But I know that's impossible, so I'm attempting to look towards the future. Anything but the present.
I'm so sorry for complaining, but I had to try something. I hope all your lives get better, and remember, you're all wonderful people. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise. And if you're contemplating suicide, think of all the people you'll be upsetting. Just look forward for a better day. That's what I'm doing. Let's hope it works.