my life was going fine until last May 2011.When all hell started to break lose.The girl I loved got married to someone else which just crushed my heart.My professional life started to become mess soon after.Full of crappy work an no recognition, but getting screwed by the politics in office.All my friends who I know, are more successful than me and atleast more settled and happier than me.I invested in stocks to make money, but lost heavily.I feel like a complete loser.I stay completely alone in a crowded and polluted city and everyday my hatred towards myself, life ,people and God increases.My younger brother is much more successful than me.Even personality wise I am an idiot,selfish,coward and a pathetic loser.I also have stuttering problem and not fluent in talking which may be the cause of most of my problems. I hate life and I really wish I wasn't born. I have no one to talk to and even if I tell this to my family and friends,I will be admitted to a mental hospital.Sometimes I get urge to admit myself to mental institution(may be i am insane or psycho).So that I get some kind of shock to my brain which will make forget bad things in life and also improve my personality by triggering i don't know maybe some area in my brain.I know i sound completely foolish and insane,but that is who iam. | |
You're not a loser and you have to stop comparing yourself to others. There are always going to be people who seem to have more, seem to have their shit together, and it's all a facade. The grass is not greener in your neighbor's yard, trust me. EVERYONE has problems! You only have the power to change yourself and your outlook on life. No one's going to stroll into your life and wave a magic wand and make things better. It's up to you- to change. AND you certainly don't want to check yourself into the psyche ward. You'll seriously regret it. The red tape to get out of one of those places is insane. Find a therapist, hang in there-
Your friend,
Cursed
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