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Purpose... or lack thereof.

Posted by mishka at May 3, 2012
Tags: 2012 May  Relationship

Every morning when I open my eyes, I am again hit by the realization that I have absolutely no purpose... no reason to get out of bed. I don't have a job, I don't have friends, I don't have a single thing to do. My life is completely empty, devoid of any sort of meaning. I am like a fish in a bowl, constantly swimming around with no goal... no thought, just mindless existence. I occasionally attempt to break free from this swirling monotony that is my life, but I just can't seem to ever break free. I no longer can stand it. Everyday is another waste. I look around and see people I once knew passing me by, creating a life of their own, and I feel like I'm stuck in this static environment where nothing ever changes. Thanks for listening, back around the bowl I go.


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By anonymous at 04,May,12 07:55

You're life isn't so bad. You just need to find something. There are people out there caught up in some shit that they can't get out of like a loveless marriage with children. Now that sucks. Or have some serious social anxiety. You will get better.

By anonymous at 04,May,12 10:11

Hi, I think you should spend some time exploring yourself. Go for a walk around the neighborhood and think about what you want (even if you dont feel like you want anything). I think you should try out as many new things as possible. I'm having this problem too... I'm always the one to take advice but never to actually do it myself lol. But I think you should find new hobbies, then you can meet people who share your hobbies. And I don't mean a boring hobby, something like clubbing, the beach, anything that interests you. Maybe you could go somewhere different and away from the people you knew and like, act out a personality that you wish you have, it might be fun because no one will know who you are. An in doing that maybe youll discover things about yourself that you didn't know. When you don't have anything you have to GO GET IT! No ones going to help you because everyone else oncares about their drama, thats just the way people are though. It will get better though:) You just have to make it better

By Cursed at 04,May,12 11:39

Dear Mishka-
It sounds to me like you are depressed. When was the last time you had a physical? Make an appointment with your doctor to get you blood work done. You could be lacking in vitamins or unfortunately, there may be something more serious? I experienced a really toxic breakup a few years back. I was crying non-stop, couldn't think straight, and all I wanted to do was sleep. My doctor placed me on Paxil, and within a week, I was feeling better. I wasn't experiencing the lows of my obsessive mind- beating me up. I could focus and concentrate. In anycase, you've got to pull yourself out of the slump you're in, because NOBODY is going to do it for you! Get out of bed! Get dressed, make yourself go outside, and find something to do just to get you out of your house. Find a job- any job to earn income and to get the ball rolling. Working will improve your self-esteem and self-worth. It will give you something TO DO! And who knows, you may make a friend or two?
I wish you luck-
You can do it-

By at 04,May,12 13:38

Good day slag, you do have a purpose....Washing clothes, cooking , cleaning the dishes, mowing the garden....etc etc etc. Chill out brouwn trout! Go to the pub and get yerself a Boddington!! Dont be such a jamrag!! GOD SAVE THE QUEEN

By anonymous at 04,May,12 17:37

I'll tell you, stop being a spoiled Bitch and do something with you life, staying in bed isn't going to make life worth while.
By anonymous at 05,May,12 04:34

Shut up dude the kid is obviously depressed. pls. don't be so mean to her.

By anonymous at 04,May,12 17:56

Find your self life can take your breath away.I was too lost and now and then still have to reasure myself daily affirmation techniquea help.the world is a better place with you in it.Go explore create you .

By anonymous at 04,May,12 19:31

You sound the way I used to. Try moving to a new city somewhere where there are jobs. Get a new job you will meet new people and start over. That is what helped me......I even got a little kitty. my life is getting better. Good luck to you.

By anonymous at 05,May,12 05:01

Try sucking cock. Then smoke a joint. Yo ain't a fish man stop acting like one. You have full control over your situation mate don't just swim around jump out of the effin bowl and find a way.

By anonymous at 05,May,12 05:15

dont know about anybody else, but when i was reading this it sounded like the begining of a book!
it instantly grabbed me and i wished you continued the story on further so i could keep reading! seriouslt write a book!! lol
By anonymous at 07,May,12 22:46

I agree! Maybe this is your purpose, Mishka, to write a book... :D

By anonymous at 05,May,12 10:41

Start drinking, get drunk.
By anonymous at 06,May,12 10:21

that is terrible advice

By anonymous at 06,May,12 10:23

I used to feel like this too, I also moved city, I think some people cant help but look at the bigger picture and keep searching. Keep fighting. Find your something new you are doing with your life. Then you wont feel like u are watching everyone elses progressing and not yours. Take action.

By Josie at 25,May,16 00:16

You are so awesome for helping me solve this myysret.

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