I'm 20, F, I've got a disability which affects my mobility. About 3 years ago I was a happy person, comfortable in life, then I went to college and met my boyfriend, he seemed nice until 3 months into the relationship, he got mad for opening a book he was reading and snatched it off me and ripped it up, I wish I left him then but I thought it was a one off, it got worse, 10 months in he hit me but we carried on, my first year of college was nearly over and my mum met this man and soon after she started neglecting my 5 younger siblings so I was looking after them for a bit then she was so bitchy and I couldn't take it and I had to move in with my boyfriend and his parents, He became more abusive I went back home after 3 months and we didn't speak for 10 months, I was happy again but lonely so on his birthday I contacted him we we're happy for 5 months then slowly the abuse started up again and my mum kicked me out and I had no other choice of moving back in with him knowing he would stop me from seeing my friends and family and he doesn't have a job so he's watching me all the time and I always have to go out when he wants to cos he's got some fear of being out on his own and because I use a wheelchair outside I need to be pushed so I never go out on my own, a year ago I couldn't keep up with paying for taxis to college and back so I stopped going to college and since all I do every day is sit in all day waiting for him to wake up in the afternoon and just sit their while he plays on his ps3 everyday, I wanted to go back to college but he said no that i'm stupid and it would be a waste of time cos i'm useless. So everyday i'm sitting in doing nothing wanting to burst in to tears but if I do he shouts and hits me and tells me i'm crying for nothing so I ache to cry and find it hard to keep it in. I wish I knew a better way to live. My life sucks. | |
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