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bitter sweet life

Posted by anonymous at May 13, 2012
Tags: 2012 May  Philosophical

27 year old mannish boy. I grew up with parents who i can best describe as "nomadic". I've lived in pretty much every country in the world..Russia, Korea, Brazil, Japan, Thailand, U.S., many places in Europe... i've never had stability. One or the other parent was in and out constantly, it was only me and my little sister that were always "stuck together". Financially we were P-O-O-R!! i guess the worst part is asian mothers don't hug or say "i love you" to their kids. she adored me over my sister, she got fucked over and now she's ugly and fat and more lonely than me..

I had to learn many different languages, lose friends every time you moved, and
I remember my mom said this to me when i was growing up " tyler you will have to endure a lonely life, its a lonely course and just handle it.." i swear those words haunt me till this day..indirectly cursed me..

I fell in love at 25. To a beautiful girl. We broke up after 1.5 years. I can't do anything but feel like ( in complete shock still..) what is there to live for? i still haven't found what i truly want in life or whatever they call it "passion". I was happy with her, but people change...

Does anyone just want to "be"??? not worry about finding love, work, money or family... im saying, who wants all this "stuff" like materialism and relationships..(because none of it really lasts..nothing is permanent)

i want to wake up somewhere tropical, with a mild wind blowing gently into my window, with long thin white curtains floating/undulating oh so quietly like the ocean waves...

I dunno why im so lost, i've always been this way. i think the only thing i ever wanted from life was one beautiful girl and to live near the ocean..maybe sailing would be nice too....

i miss my ex. i wish i had more friends. i wish i could love my parents. but like my mom said " you will always be alone" and i think what she said is truth.

money, sex, good looks, nothing can make you happy unless you could be happy alone. but i have/had all these things and im still fucking miserable..

maybe thats just life, bitter sweet


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By justme at 13,May,12 09:35

Something you said is very true: "nothing can make you happy unless you could be happy alone". If you don't like who you are, then being in your own company is hard and you want someone else to distract you from that fact. If possible, let her be beautiful? Money, sex, good looks are just entertainments if you cannot be in peace with yourself. In this sense, your mom was right.

I think you have found what is your passion. It's the ocean. You would like to be in a tropical place, living near the ocean, and maybe sailing. Why don't you try? You have international experience and, as you said, speak many languages. That is exactly the kind of experience that resort clubs, such as Club Med or others, look for in their staff. Give it a go.


By anonymous at 13,May,12 10:38

Move to the philippines. It's a tropical country with lots of beautiful girls. Stop whining and do something. Good lucK.


By anonymous at 13,May,12 11:24

Sounds like you need to mature. Do something, maybe like working?


By anonymous at 13,May,12 14:03

1Peter 2:24 Who (Jesus) his own self bare our sins in his own body on the tree, that we, being dead to sins, should live unto righteousness: by whose stripes ye were healed.

Psalm 103:12 As far as the east is from the west, so far hath he removed our transgressions from us.

John 3:16 For God so LOVED the world, that he gave his only begotten Son (Jesus), that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.

1Corinthians 15:3-4
3 For I delivered unto you first of all that which I also received, how that Christ DIED for our sins according to the scriptures;
4 And that he was BURIED , and that he ROSE again the third day according to the scriptures:

JESUS LOVES YOU

Mark 1:15 The time is fulfilled, and the kingdom of God is at hand: REPENT ye, and BELIEVE the gospel.


By Science > Religion at 14,May,12 15:52

Your mum is a wise person. Life IS lonely. I think you will find the ocean, more friends and a beautiful girlfriend pretty meaningless too. You are getting older. Laugh at life and enjoy the small things.


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