27 year old mannish boy. I grew up with parents who i can best describe as "nomadic". I've lived in pretty much every country in the world..Russia, Korea, Brazil, Japan, Thailand, U.S., many places in Europe... i've never had stability. One or the other parent was in and out constantly, it was only me and my little sister that were always "stuck together". Financially we were P-O-O-R!! i guess the worst part is asian mothers don't hug or say "i love you" to their kids. she adored me over my sister, she got fucked over and now she's ugly and fat and more lonely than me..
I had to learn many different languages, lose friends every time you moved, and
I remember my mom said this to me when i was growing up " tyler you will have to endure a lonely life, its a lonely course and just handle it.." i swear those words haunt me till this day..indirectly cursed me..
I fell in love at 25. To a beautiful girl. We broke up after 1.5 years. I can't do anything but feel like ( in complete shock still..) what is there to live for? i still haven't found what i truly want in life or whatever they call it "passion". I was happy with her, but people change...
Does anyone just want to "be"??? not worry about finding love, work, money or family... im saying, who wants all this "stuff" like materialism and relationships..(because none of it really lasts..nothing is permanent)
i want to wake up somewhere tropical, with a mild wind blowing gently into my window, with long thin white curtains floating/undulating oh so quietly like the ocean waves...
I dunno why im so lost, i've always been this way. i think the only thing i ever wanted from life was one beautiful girl and to live near the ocean..maybe sailing would be nice too....
i miss my ex. i wish i had more friends. i wish i could love my parents. but like my mom said " you will always be alone" and i think what she said is truth.
money, sex, good looks, nothing can make you happy unless you could be happy alone. but i have/had all these things and im still fucking miserable..
maybe thats just life, bitter sweet | |
I think you have found what is your passion. It's the ocean. You would like to be in a tropical place, living near the ocean, and maybe sailing. Why don't you try? You have international experience and, as you said, speak many languages. That is exactly the kind of experience that resort clubs, such as Club Med or others, look for in their staff. Give it a go.
Psalm 103:12 As far as the east is from the west, so far hath he removed our transgressions from us.
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1Corinthians 15:3-4
3 For I delivered unto you first of all that which I also received, how that Christ DIED for our sins according to the scriptures;
4 And that he was BURIED , and that he ROSE again the third day according to the scriptures:
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