I am a 54 year old woman married with two grown up children who take me for granted.
I can't work as I have a chronic illness. I know I am reasonably well preserved for my age but I feel ugly inside. I know I am an intelligent person but I feel like a worthless nobody. I have few friends. I used to have many friends but I stopped putting in all the effort and they soon dropped off. I am lonely and tired and every day I feel like ending it all
I have regular cou selling but I think my counsellor has heard it all before from me and doesn't seem to take me seriously when I say how low I feel.
I am walking a tightrope. Everyday I feel like I toss the coin - not today! Maybe tomorrow. I know how to do it so no one can save me. It's clean and easy.... Just boil up all the tablets in the house and drink it. There's nothing anyone can do. |
I am sorry for your loneliness. Have you ever thought about volunteering? There are so many lonely elderly stuck in hospitals, nursing homes, assisted living facilities, if you gave a bit of yourself- you would be amazed at how good you would feel! What about pets? I don't know what I would do without my dog and damn cat! I love my pets so much! I come home from a hard days work- and guess who's there to greet me??? YUP- THE PETS!! They nuzzle and purrr and they are the best!!! And there are so many doggies and kitties in need of a good home- it's enough to make you ball your eyes out if you have ever been to a shelter-
In anycase- there are multitudes of lonely people and animals out there- sometimes when we give we receive a whole lot more!
A big hug out to you my dear-
Cursed
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