I'm fucking tired of working. I haven't worked a lot. It's been 10 months since I've graduated and have been working 9 months of it and I'm fucking tired of it. What can I tell you, I am lazy. I don't want to do anything. I don't want to file a paper, I don't want to analyze shit. I don't want to report to my boss. In short I don't want to do anything. I just want to lock myself in my room away from everyone and get out once every 3 months or so. I don't want anyone to disturb me or anyone to want anything from me. Is that too much to ask? I don't know why people work and I don't yet understand why people "should" work. Who said we should work the first 8-10 hours of the day, come home beat up, eat something and go to bed to repeat the same bullshit all over again. If this is what life is, I don't want to be a part of it. The root of all this evil is that people need money in this fucked up society to live. I don't mind that there is money in the world, just the fact that we have to trade our lives for money, and for what? So that when we're 65 years old, when we're old, semi-dead, mentally disturbed from being exposed to all the bullshit of the world, up to our necks with medications so the we can simply function, "then" we will be able to retire. What an epic life.
This is what I am looking forward to for the rest of my life and I am sick of it. I am sabotaging myself so that I get fired so I can maybe start my own business. Anything is better than working like a slave. I may make a lot less money but who the fuck cares. All I need is electricity, internet, and some food in my belly, what else do I need!? Maybe my business would fail because I am lazy as hell, but if it doesn't, at least I will be happy. I applied for the army as well. If it works out I will have double my salary, work till 2pm every day and I can retire at 45 and they best part is that I can't get fired, time to slack like a pro. What can I say, I am trying. I am now at work trying to get fired with all thoughts of hatred passing through my mind. If all else fails, i start a business and it fails and the army doesn't work out, at least I can commit suicide and get out of this fucked up world. And all those that are going to comment, no don't take your life away, it is the most precious thing you have can go fuck themselves. These are the people who most want to kill themselves but don't have the balls to do it.
Thanks for anyone who read this, life is a bitch, the system is designed for people to fail and be miserable. My sincerest wishes to all people who are really stuck, have no money, are clinically depressed, and have no way of getting out. These good people are screwed for life and have absolutely no way of changing it. And while i'm at it, all those people that say you can achieve anything in your life, you just want to want it badly enough, or that you are in control of your thoughts and you can manipulate your brain to feel empowered at any second, please kill yourselves, less of your kind would be great for the world. People can't simply change their thoughts at will and most people don't have the ability of wanting something badly enough. Most of us in the real world are not insanely passionate about anything, so please keep your comments to yourself. The world is getting more fucked up every day. One more thing, God does not exist, and if he does, he is not the benevolent all seeing all loving God that is preached to us as kids. Probably has strong sight problems (myopia), has attention deficit disorder, and most definitely is an uncaring bastard. Maybe there is no internet in heaven and he hasn't yet seen this site.
In all cases, thank you for anyone who read this and my best wishes goes to all who are suffering both from true misfortunes and imagined ones. Just because it doesn't look that bad it doesn't mean that the person is not suffering.