I was born in 1992 my gramps died and parents split up when I was 2 my dads a crazy Italian drunk and my moms all sorts of fucked up I used to live in a mansion but now in this shitty dusty appartment I've fucked everything up with drugs dropped outta school went to rehab beeen in jail done all sorts of stupid shit. I work at mcdonalds and have add so bad that I can't focus for more then ten seconds on one thing I've gone crazy thinking everyone around me is trying to kill me. I can't stop thinking about how much bad shit I've done I say I'm joinin the army and goin to collage but who knows I've walked under a million ladders so I don't think anything will work out for me I constantly thing I'm retated and can't get laid to save my life and think about death a lot maybe its a better place. Or I could go back to drugs I'm really fucked up And did shrooms and all sorts of drugs allll the time more then anyone you know most likely. And I'm not tryin to brag but at the time I was. I know I am responsible for my actions but I can't change them either. I need somthing to fight for to live for cause I've never givin 2 shits for myself. Sometimes I think of my life as one big suicide attempt. But I am to afraid to follow through. I didn't always feel like this but I do now. My dads 65 and I'm stuck taking care of him after he's fucked his life up too my family doesn't even talk to eachother anymore it's depressing sometimes things get better but they get worse after but idk things seem a little better now so we will see.