hi, i am 24 years old and i wake up everyday realizing that i managed to fuck up the one person's life, whom i love very much. and there is nothing i can do to change that. its been 2 and a half years now and i haven't seen or talked to her. i have lost all interest in life. i was an artist, an athlete,photographer, played music and i was funny. i can't study and i can't focus on anything anymore. my graph has gone down since then. i have disappointed my parents and my little brother. everyday day is the same, i decide that it will be different but nothing really changes. i don't really have any friends anymore either. the one that i thought was my friend for the past 4 years, turned out to be a mother fucking two faced back stabbing faggot. i have lost my repute and i find it very hard to deal with my memories of the good times.
i have seen a lot of stories on this site, i wish them all the best with their lives. i have no intentions of giving up on life because i have responsibilities.
i just can't get out of this fucking circle of fucking everything going from bad to worst. i wish to leave this verse as a sign of hope for the rest of the people here. i know its not much but i too find myself hanging from a tread, and i guess its enough to help me fight for the days to come.
"I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul."
invictus by ernest henley...