the pain of losing my son to suicide...and the guilt and confusion and shock of it have weighed so heavily on me that it makes me want to escape from the pain..i don't want to hurt others, but i'm finding that i cannot envision a life with any happiness at this point. so i want to leave this world. and i hope...though its probably futile, that if i leave this world, that i can see,or feel the presence of my son again. i want to die. but i'm not sure how to do it w/out hurting others...how to make it look like an accident... | |
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Think very hard before you take this step. If you like, read "Time Warrior" by Steve Chandler. This book is a time management book but it helped cure my depression. I started becoming productive and the depression slowly turned into confidence. Maybe it will help you as well.
And if you don't work, I recommend you take up a profession. It gives you something to focus on and distracts you from the pain. If you are alone, you will wallow in guilt and self pity.
I take it day by day in my heart my son tells me how much he loves me still... He forever changed my life for him as well as my other children i live to see another day. I too long to hold him have him wrap his arms around me like a lil monkey as he use to i have alot of changes to make to get through heavens gates just to be with him i know he will be there & so will I. PLEASE ignore evil people ignorance is so sad misery or happiness peace with your son eternal life its up to us i pray for you your son is still with you all around you guiding you remember love true unconditional love if you open your heart peace will find you if you pray & believe you will see for yourself please hang in there im here i read your story i feel your pain so i understan how you feel but you are stronger then you even know take care i use to tell my baby "if you believe you shall succeed.
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