There was a time when I was so depressed that I was contemplating suicide. But people always tell you, that you're supposed to stay strong. You're supposed to fight the circumstances and never give up. But who and what are we trying to prove by living in depression. I don't know if I am out of depression yet because I used to be an outgoing guy who was always the life of the party and who always had fun, but I don't like to talk much anymore. I am always a silent guy who is often a source of uncomfortable silences. My friends tell me that I have changed. My parents think that I have no guile and that it would be difficult for me to survive in this world. But I don't think my condition is still bad enough for me to commit suicide. But I can't rule out the possibility that things could get worse and there might come a time when suicide might appear to be the only way out. But if you think that suicide should never be an option, I just wanna ask you, "why?". Why should it not be an option? Its my way of saying that I have had enough and I don't wanna take shit anymore. What differnce does it make whether I live or die? The only purpose to life that I see is to seek happiness, and to feel good, and it sounds totally stupid to me. What difference does it make if I forsake the possible happiness that I might get in the future, by ending my life today? Atleast my misery would end. I don't see any higher purpose to life, and I don't give a damn if I am offered happiness in the future. What difference does it make??