Fell in love in high school. Rejected and told "You'll meet someone and be happy." Over the next 14 years, I have three or four relationships that last no more than 6 months each. Finally I meet someone at 32, to whom I get married. 2 years in she rejects me, threatens violence and kicks me out. Divorce.
Now I'm 37, I haven't had sex in two years. I can't talk to my family and haven't seen them in 3 years. I have no friends. Money is very tight.
I'm not sure what to do now. I trusted 20 years ago that when people told me "you'll meet someone and be happy", they were telling the truth. But it's really a big lie. I've been nothing but miserable for as long as I can remember, except for the two years that I was married. Now I can't stop thinking about my failed marriage and I don't really want to do the next 20 years. I think I might throw in the towel. | |
So, yeah...throw in the towel, Warty!
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~Nick
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I have survived two failed marriages, and I am in a relationship that is failing now, but yet I can't give up. My first husband became a drunk the last 3 years of our marriage. We were married for 10 years. He couldn't keep a job, and ended up being a stay at home Dad for our two children. Wow!!! He was drunk, cheating, and spending my hard earned $$$. He was suppose to be watching our children, yes they were left home alone at an early age. He became verbally and physically abusive to me and latter to the children. When I saw physical & emotional marks left on our children, I filed for divorce. No man, now matter what he looks like, not even how good he is in the bedroom is worth living like that!!!!!!!!!!!! You shouldn't have to live in a marriage that is verbally abusive or physically abusive even if it is the woman dishing out the garbage. So please forget her... yes, I understand that maybe their was some good times, and sweet moments of lovemaking, but don't focus on all that. You need to see her (your ex-wife) for what she is, and move on, forget her... Maybe that is what is holding you back from your future. Don't give in, don't give up, give everything to our LORD and SAVIOR JESUS CHRIST. If you are not saved, please pray about it. Find a good Christian Church where they believe in the King James Bible, and preach it. It is o.k. to read other versions of the Bible, but stay focused. Don't lose sight to what is good in this world. GOD LOVES YOU!!! YOU ARE SPECIAL TO HIM!!!!!! YOU ARE SPECIAL!!! Be happy in the small things in life, don't worry about the big things. JESUS CHRIST will take care of it for you. No, you won't probably win the lottery or anything (Lol), but He will meet your needs. GOD is good all the time!!!!!!!!!!!!! : ) Please don't listen to all some of these other people on this web-site. Sounds like they aren't real compassionate people, and they aren't living in the real world... Oh yes, my second husband was leading an entire double life, and hid it very well at that. I would have never guessed. He is in jail over his decisions and choices, I am the one who turned him in for bad things he did to other people. I am currently engaged at the moment, but I see red flags starting to pop up all over the place. I have to stay focused... I really love him, but he is starting to act just like my over controlling ex-husbands. The verbal abuse is starting all over again, and physical abuse as well... time for me to go. I have already been down this road... and I don't wish to go there again. I know my way quite well... Anyway, I am not giving up!!! I know that GOD has the perfect person for me!!! I just have to wait on the LORD!!!!! : ) Please stay busy. Keep active... volunteer... At a library, hospital, dog & cat rescue places, and etc. Don't go bar hopping... you might get laid, but you will meet the wrong kind of woman. Sorry for my bluntness. Oh, yes, lots of Churches have single groups or groups for divorcees, bible study, and etc. Just stay busy, if you are so lonely. Please don't think about yourself, think about others less fortunate. Don't keep thinking on the past, let it go, you can't change anything right? It's done and over with... look toward your future!!! : ) Don't waste precious time being a prisoner from your past. Oh, another suggestion... get fit... I am not saying that you might be physically unfit, but swimming, cycling, hiking, walking, jogging, weitht lifting are all ways to stay fit and lean. They also are great stress busters... ha, ha, had when you first start out, you are so tired, you won't be thinking of all of your problems. I should know... been there... done that. Oh yes, it also curbs your sex drive, go figure!!! You won't be thinking about your lack up, or slack of sex. You will be focusing on the fact that "WOW!!! I look great!!!!!" Exercise also released endorphins, the natural, happy drug. I hope this all helps you, or somebody else too. Stay sweet... Stay blessed... I will be praying for you... GOD knows who you are... GOD Bless You Always!!! Love, A Sister In Christ
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