I'm 35, male, single.
HIV positive for 9 years.
I can't keep a stable relationship.
I can't keep money in my account, it usually ends up negative about $300 with in 3 days after pay-day.
My credit is ruined, its below 600.
I can't control my spending.
I smoke pot at night to help me sleep.
I haven't had any real contact with my family, who live about 16 hours away, in a very long time. They don't call or even try to check in on me.
My mother died when I was a sr in high school and my father was never around.
I don't know what to do or how to fix it.
I know I've made some bad decisions but I want a way out.
I don't wanna feel like this anymore. | |
I am so sorry that you have HIV and that you are suffering. My troubles pale in comparison. You have to be strong even though it must feel like the world is against you- Perhaps if you were to volunteer and share your story with others it may bring you some peace? Talking to complete strangers is a good way to vent, but what you need right now is a strong support of people who care and love you. My heart goes out to you- and a big cyber hug too...
Cursed
Cursed
Amazingly, no one wants to talk to you! Holy fuck....whoda thunk it???!!
If I were you I'd go to large multiplex theaters whenever that vampire movie comes out that make the girls panties wet so they make their guys take them to it even though it sucks ass and I'd sit in the top row and make fart noises every time the vampires kiss. Then , after a lot of people tell you to cut it out some big dude who hates being where is already comes up and beats the shit out of you and you get blood on his knuckles and you say "Nyahhh nyahhh!! YOU GOT THE HIV NOW EVERYONE WILL THINK YOU'RE A RUMP PUMPER AHAHAHAHAHA!!!! And then he'll kill you so there's your way out, plus he has the HIV now.
Alternatively you could stop spending beyond your limits, quit smoking pot, call your family instead of waiting for them, and just generally feeling sorry for your fucking pathetic faggoty ass. Seriously, if you're a home that's fine, but just stop being a whiny faggot...there's a difference.
Also, I just hate the fuck out of you.
And that's why when I read comments like the above I laugh. Very hard.
Fortunately the world is beginning to hold ignorant pricks like you responsible for what you write on a computer, cowardly, alone, desparately trying to put down others to make yourself feel better about your shitty life.
How does it feel to have your liable suicidal-promoting opinion online forever on a site you'll probably never return to?
i choose not to have one and i'm perfectly happy with it.
where the fuck is all your money going?
find some volunteer work or something to keep you busy so that you will not spend like a maniac
its hard...i wish you the best
i am pretty much in the same boat as a woman however i have a penis.
Maybe try religion?
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