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Why does God hate me still?

Posted by anonymous at June 18, 2012
Tags: Attitude  2012 June

I feel like the past 6 years God has been using me like bath tissue to wipe his ass crack. Why? What did I do wrong? I try to be a good person. I treat people well, keep my head up when shit comes my way, and keep my eyes on the prize when people try to push me down. People from who knows where come along and give me shit like I did something to them. I try not to let it get to me, but sometimes it's just too much. I just keep moving forwards, putting one foot in front of the other, hoping things may turn for the better. But the facts of my life remain the same.

People tell me things will get better. People tell me that I'll get this and that and something great will happen, but shit never happens. I wish people would just shut the hell up with their smug advice and empty words. I am so sick of hearing about it. And no I can't be thankful or joyful for what I already have. About the only thing I have to be thankful for is that I'm not homeless. Yes I do recognize that things could be worse, but my life seems like a ticking time bomb, not something to be joyful about. I really don't know what I'm doing wrong.

I do realize that when bad things happen it doesn't mean I caused them. Okay, but being kept down like this for so long is frustrating. What is this all about? I don't get it, God. As far as I can see, the rest of my life isn't going to be great anyway, but could you at least allow me to function normally like everyone else? Why do you keep giving me this shit?


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By broken at 02,Jul,12 21:13

God isn't going to do anything to make things better... The big beard in the sky is a myth conjured up by very smart people to control you.

Take this knowledge and re-evaluate your life.
By anonymous at 03,Jul,12 22:43

hear to this man, i wish he was wrong.
but there is no big plan.
By anonymous at 11,Jul,12 06:16

nods in approval
By anonymous at 09,Aug,12 18:57

By anonymous at 11,Jul,12 22:22

Hey, pal. I know what you feel like. Douchebags come along, give u shit 4 no reason, and God does nothing about it. Here's the key: stop believing in God 2day. Turn your back on him like he turned his back on u. I'm serious. God has these "teacher's pets" in the world and they are the ones that he cares about most, It's just 2 hard 2 be a Christian.
By juco4EVR at 11,Jul,12 22:43

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By anonymous at 09,Aug,12 19:05

You people say the stupidest most ignorant things. If its really just too hard to be a christian then you had no right in the first place to call yourself one.
By anonymous at 26,Dec,12 19:14

way to really show the compassion there brother. Are you a Christian? If you are go back and read some verse's about helping people out and compassion. This is what is wrong with the church today. To many so called Christians kicking people when they are down.

By anonymous at 07,Aug,12 18:43

people need to get off this person's back.
Yes they blamed God. But you dont know their circumstances.
They have come here to vent and let out their despair..
rather than criticizing, show support
By anonymous at 11,Aug,12 02:36

rock on, dude!

By anonymous at 15,Aug,12 23:31

The nightmares continue for almost 22 years nearly every time I sleep. Im now 44 fucking years old and no girlfriend. Im condemned to endless loneliness depression and mental torment since 1983. Since 15 years old. 29 fucking years of mental suffering. Im stuck at a shithole supermarket job cleaning and sweeping tons of trash and shit. My life is a dead end.
By anonymous at 26,Jan,13 03:37

I feel for you man. I'm 19 but destined for the same path. Where do you live? If we live close we should chill and make this whole existance thing less unbearable for us both.

By anonymous at 21,Aug,12 01:45

I continue. Im not interested anymore in getting a girlfriend. Fuck girls and women fuck dating and fuck relationships. I dont care if women ignore me or notice me. You fucking sluts are pure evil. I hate all of you. Fuck all of you.

By anonymous at 22,Aug,12 16:16

i conrinue. Hey penis breath. If your reading this from your outhouse or from the sewers you need to get off the website. Take your stupidity and degeneracy elsewhere. Go ahead. Call me ugly through the Internet. What does that mean to me? Nothing. What do I care? Nothing. Who are you? A nothing. Your just an intestinal tapeworm that needs to be extracted and flushed and nothing more. In between my anger Im actually laughing AT YOU. Im laughing because Im astounded that anyone could make such rude vulgar nasty stupid ignorant vile comments. Im laughing at the fact that there are actually assholes as obnoxious as you on the Internet. You have the mind of an infant. You have shit for brains penis breath. Immoral amoral nonmoral scum describes you. Your lower than a maggot. Im sure even the cockroaches and rats cant stand you and flee from you every time they see you penis breath. You have made a total asshole out of yourself penis breath. Degenerate tapeworm. Ass wipe. Human excrement. Human vomit. Human fuck up.Fuck you and fuck women and fuck humanity. The evil you exude nauseates me penis breath. Even flies and maggots wouldnt touch an evil despicable piece of shit such as you.Such evil rot as you dont even have the right to breathe. You illustrate the evil that abounds in the world. Your WORSE than disease. Your lower than the shit lying on the ground. Get off the website you fucking tapeworm. Your lower than the germs and bacteria on bathroom door handles. It doesnt get any lower than you penis breath. Slimy tapeworm. Human rot human vomit human fuck up. Human asshole. Your a JOKE. Go away troll. Dirtbag. Maggot. Shit stain. Diarrhea. Go crawl back to your outhouse or sewer. I hate you beyond words penis breath. GET THE FUCK OFF THE WEBSITE YOU FUCKING TAPEWORM.

By anonymous at 25,Aug,12 16:28

And to Family values or Asshole values and to Broken who are friends with penis breath your all LIARS. Its YOU assholes who suck cocks. Its YOU assholes who are into blowjobs. NOT me. You assholes are confusing me with someone else and your telling horrible lies about me. To all you readers out there; DONT believe what these lying assholes are writing about me. Theyre all fucking liars. And dirtbags trolls degenerates.

By anonymous at 29,Aug,12 20:28

Im sorry Family values. Your the only good guy in this.

By anonymous at 01,Sep,12 02:00

And to all of you who harassed me and especially you Sir Paul or rather Sir Fuckwit my words to you are FUCK YOU ASSHOLES.

By anonymous at 05,Oct,12 22:56

I know god hates me. I try to be the best person that I can but no God has to spit on me on a daily basis. i see other's lives get better and mine continue to stink. People say pray. When I do my life gets worse. I am trying to better myself with school and try to find a job. But no he has to spit on me.
Why should I follow God when he hates me. He is showing me that I am not worth anything.
I need to come to terms that he doesn't want me to follow his word. If that is what he wants i have to be ok with that.
By anonymous at 08,Oct,12 00:46

You believe that God hates you. We really cannot know what this God is like because He is so remote aloof silent hidden and disconnected. He may love us but He maybe irrational and deranged and allow us to suffer or He maybe incompetent. Or He may not be powerful enough or He may not be smart enough to help us. Or He may be devoid of reasoning. Or He maybe a Dr. Jekyll and Mr.Hyde with a split personality as the Bible suggests and He may love us while at the same time He tortures us or He may love us while He neglects us. Its not a God I would like to have. Others blame the Devil and demons for having a chaotic screwed up world but this still leaves the question of why is God allowing these evil entities to ruin His creation?Something is amiss. God is deficient in some manner as I point out elsewhere.The creation is screwed. I dont see any hope for the future. The Devil continues to rule this screwed up world and not a loving God.

By anonymous at 09,Oct,12 05:14

My thoughts exactly, I have court tomorrow to try and stop an eviction. I lost my job and now im about to lose my apartment. Both of my parents are dead and I have 1 sister who hates me because i went to college and make good choices. I dont know whats up with God. Even when he does help its always at the last moment.
By anonymous at 03,Mar,13 11:21

so true

By anonymous at 14,Oct,12 03:27

I am convenced that religion is a device invented by the church, to get people scared to brainwash them to get their money. As far as where we came from? With all the planets in the universe, I believe we are a genetic expierment. As far as the bible, the first 5 chapters was given as something for us to give value, so we would not whipe out our exsistance in year one. I would like someone to give me proof that god does exsist. One final thought on death, Einstine stated that energy can not be created, or distroied, but changed from one form to another. With all the evidence on popular ghost hunting shows, it is obvious there is no heaven.
As far as god, nice try church, get your money from some other brainwashed sap.

By anonymous at 14,Oct,12 23:32

I do beleive that God is real thats why I'm so angry with him.So many questions that I have but no answer you hear alot of people say that your not suppose to question God but I need answers now!When I was about twelve my mom sent her boyfriend in the room where I was to wake me for school instead of call my name or even tapin me on the shoulder he place his hand between my legs and touched me to wake me I told my mom right there in front of him and she said nothing.Maybe about a year later I was in bed sleep and woke up and he was in the bed with me with his hands in my underware I moved and he jumped out of bed and told me that I almost got screwed.Mom finally got home from work and I told her what happened this time and she told me that she would handle it. Her idea of handle it was that night he did something to make her mad and she woke me up about 1 am and asked me what did I want her to do about what he had done,he was sitting right there how was i suppose to tell her.I did my part and told her the frist time and nothing was done about it this could have been avoided if she was the protecter and mother she was supose to be.He was known for doing thing like this and worse to little girls,so why was he aloud to be in a house where there were three girls?Fastfoward he did less than a year in jail and the whole time my mother talk to him on the phone and when it was time for him to get out HA(you guessed it)he came right back to live with us unaware that he was even out more less at my house I came in from playing I was shocked to see him sitting on the couch there had to be alook of surprise on my face my mother took me in my room and made me take off all my clothes and beat my butt and told me that she could have who the hell ever in her house,that moment killed me on the inside.I never held what he did against him but I never forgave my mom.I said this to say that say I do think that God hates me I had a mom that was very abusive physical and mental God didnt even care enough to make sure that I got a descent mom,so beat down by the physical and mental abuse that my mom released on me that by the time i was nine i tried to kill myself I feel like i never had a chance to make it or have a normal life I was beat down from the start. Now as and adult I find myself having to do what mother didnt do love that hurt little girl thats down on the inside of me.God has personally made me so many promise but they have all hit the ground why would he put me here under these conditions.

By anonymous at 20,Oct,12 22:09


By anonymous at 21,Oct,12 04:02

I see it as life just sucks,who ever is to blame so be it,but either way we are stuck with the mess of lifes shit. I was married 11yrs,then some harlot steals my hubby,he puts me an my kids out moves her in,then we divorce he keeps all dnt pay childsupport an now knocked her up.lovely is such shit..fml..

By KarimeTristan at 10,Dec,12 22:31

Everytime I try to better myself somthing happens to push me two steps back. I Can't say I don't believe in God because I do.. I don't know why I believe in him .I just feel as if he exists but it only makes it worse for me cause I feel as a majority of you all do....I feel that he just doesn't care...I pray and try and hope for the best..but that doesn't work.. so try and look on the bright side but the bright side loses light everyday . I am unhappy in my life in many ways and I been trying to fix it constantly but its like GOD just doesn't want me to better myself .I feel like that's selfish to say but that's how I feel . I don't ask to be rich or to be extremely lucky I just wish that when i try to get a job or go to school that something doesn't extremely go wrong . I wish that people didn't feel like how I feel. Like god has abandoned us. I'm tired of the sin in the world..... I WISH HE WOUlD JUST ANWSER US

By Rivers at 05,Jan,13 06:21

I was searching for some unrelated information on the inet when l "just so happend" to see the link to this question and since I do not believe in coincides,
I truly believe that Lord led me here.

For the past few years, I have also been going thru a very difficult time in my life and can tell you, I haven't always handled it in the best way ,so I understand your struggles. But I didn't come here to talk about myself.
There is a very common misconception that if bad things happen to us that God is angry with us or He does not love or care. Nothing could be farther from the truth.
When Jesus Christ, the sinless Son of God came to this Earth to pay the ultimate sacrifice on the cross for my sins, your sins-the sins of the whole world, He chose to begin his Earthly ministry not among the rich and well to do, or the high ranking pious holier than thou ministers and priests of that time period. He chose to start it with the sick, the dying, the poor, the prostitutes and the lowly of heart. Does this mean He doesn't also love the rich and the high minded?
No, not at all, but in His infinite wisdom He knew that their hearts were filled with power, greed and pride that they would not listen to His words because they would have to admit that they also were sinners.
There is only one thing that God hates and that is sin and He will not allow it in His presence.
Lucifer better known as Satan used to be the covering angel for the throne of God but he rebelled, he wanted to be God, he didnt want to be under Gods authority so he was cast out of heaven along with 1/3 of the other angels that also rebelled. God does not hate you but Satan does. The Lake of fire was originality the punishment for him and his fellow cohorts. Hell was never intended for a place for us.
Now Adam and Eve had everything they needed. God provided all. They only had one rule, God allowed them to eat of any other tree in the garden except one. Angels do not have the choice of free will, but we do. Satan hated this fact and hated Gods new creation and he also knew what his fate was and wanted to pass that fate on to Adam and Eve. He lured Eve very subtly I might add, to eat fruit from the one and only tree that was forbidden, and she brought some to Adam. God is Holy and again can not have sin in his presence so here in lay the problem.
When Adam and Eve disobeyed, thier sin broke the relationship between them and God, (spiritual death) and had to be cast out of the Garden, and now have to experience physical death as well. All sin was passed down from generation to generation.
This does not mean that God hates us.
We have been so programed from youth , that if we do something bad that God is going to drop kick us off of the planet.
Case in point, when I was a little girl, I was terrified of anyone dressed up in a Santa suit. (incidentally if you rearrange the letters in his name it spells Satan).
Have you listened to the words to the song Santa clause is commimg to town? I was not excited in the least bit to have some rolly polly dude that could see me while I was sleeping, climb down my chimny with a nap sack on his back that threated me to be good or else! In the book of Romans 6 vs 22, the Bible tells us: For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord. God sent his sinless son to take the penalty for our sins, and rose from the grave fully alive to show that physical death and spiritual death was conquered. Only a God who loves us dearly would do that. His love for us is without measure.
The Bible also says: l (Jesus) am the way, the truth and the life: no man cometh to the Father but by Me.

There is nothing we can do to save ourselves,

But God commendeth (to show, prove, to establish) his love toward us in that while we were yet sinners Christ died for us. Romans 5 vs 8.

Hurt, pain and suffering, these things are not caused by God, they are the result of sin. But God gives us the choice.
Gods plan is very simple:

1. Realize that we are sinners and and that there is nothing we can do to save ourselves.
2. Believe that God sent his only Son Jesus, to die on the cross to take the penalty for our sins, through His death, burial, and resurrection from the dead, to save us from our sin.
3. Ask Him to save you. And He will!
It is just that simple! Nothing .

The Lord is not slack concerning His promise, as some men count slackness but is long suffering to us-ward, not willing that ANY should perish, but that ALL should come to repentance. 2nd Peter , 3 :9.

Wonderful the matchless grace of Jesus , greater than all my sin. How shall my tongue describe it ,where shall my praise begin? Taking away my burden , setting my spirit free.
For the wonderful grace of Jesus, reaches me.

By anonymous at 12,Mar,13 22:59

God and sin cannot exist in the same place. You should take a look at how you are living and make some changes. If u want Gids promise and u want a good life you must separate yourself from the sin in your life and develop your relationship with him. Then you will be able to experience the love of God and not the will of satan.

By anonymous at 09,Apr,13 00:36

I know how he feels u do the good but no good ever comes back

By Zhenya at 05,May,13 16:12

Hey, that post leaves me feielng foolish. Kudos to you!

By anonymous at 19,May,13 21:33

I happened by this forum trying to find some sort of comfort, answer or closure to the pain I have been feeling lately. However, as I read the many replies I felt anything but. As the posts grew in hatred and blame towards God so did the clutches of evil, madness, and viciousness towards other souls who happened upon this site for the same reasons I did. Okay... maybe I should not rely on a non-personal computer forum for comfort. However, isn't that what they were designed for? To help those who are in need of some sort of personal affirmation? To pull together like souls who are aching too reach out to others, most likely anonymously, and connect in some way. See, I believe we need those connections. A place that is not judgmental, shameful, prideful, or filled with angry words that berate others feelings and/or believes. I guess I did need to find this forum and read it. I needed to find it because I needed to realize how much others are hurting as much as I am. All the anger stating things like God is "a myth," seems to cover up the underlying feelings of fear, abandonment, loneliness, and pain. So, to the one who wrote the original piece and too all others who feel that everyone hates them, remember those words and all others like them. And when you do, take comfort in the fact that life is nothing more than what we all make it. That doesn't mean it doesn't Suck beyond believe at times. It just means that life sucks for EVERYONE sometimes! Each person, whether Christian, Atheist, Buddhist, or whatever, must chose to either take power over their own pain or let the pain take the power over them. Either way, life does SUCK sometimes. It's not the worlds fault or Gods fault, and most of all... It's not your fault!

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