hello. Life is shit. I am a 26 yr. old Canadian male. I feel bad for all the people who have written on here about all the shit that happened to them, and is happening. I came here tonight thinking about how I hate my life, well I do. Anyway, life is shit all around the world. I grew up in the middle east where my two older brothers and I were beaten, molested, and tortured for being white kids. My father is a narcissist, who thought it was fun to beat us too, and in the next breath would tell us that he was a messenger of God to a heathen land. When I was 6 was the first time i tried to kill myself. held my head under in a bucket of water, didn't work. I tried riding my bicycle as fast as i could into a concrete wall, resulted in little more then a massive lump on my head. I hated my life. when I was 10 my teacher molested me, she would take me, tell the other kids i had been bad, she would threaten to tell my parents too if i didn't do things with her. When I was 12 my family went back to Canada, and for once i felt free, i wasnt kicked out of bakeries, beaten in the street for being blond. I wanted to stay in Canada, and when my dreams were shattered I hung myself before we could go back when i was thirteen. I didn't die, obviously, not sure how i lived, but i did. For the longest time i thought it was God, and that he had finally been there and saved me, but when i was 16 i realized that if that was the case, God has a sick sense of humor. When I was sixteen my father sent me to cypress by myself, some stupid visa renewal thing. While in cypress I got in a car with three men who offered me a ride into town, instead the drove into the country and raped me, forced me to give oral, and take anal. I havent talked about this till today, not even to my wife of 6 years. but, more now than ever i hate my life and i want a refund. I would rather not have lived at all than have lived this life. I am tierd of bottleing it up inside, I hate every job i ever have, i lose control when i feel i am being taken advantage of or being teated unfairly, and thats all this world is. I used to think i was going to change the world, but i give up, its just too much shit. THank you for reading.