NOTE: I AM A GIRL!
Since the 5th grade my life has been going down hill with my body due to my genetics. When I was 10 years old they pulled out my baby teeth and told me I had to get teeth implants. I wore braces for 8 years because I didn't have three real adult teeth. My cousin is going through the same thing right now.
Then my hair starts to fall out when I was 10 years old and I don't have alopecia areata or alopecia universalis. I have female pattern baldness. Found a photo of my grandfather's first cousin and she had female pattern baldness too. Woo.
When I was 12 I felt a horrible pain and I refused to go to the doctor. I finally went and I found out I have a slip disc pinching my nerve. Months later I go back and they said I have a spine fracture. Great...
For years I suffered with seizures, but I didn't know they were seizures. I had never heard of complex partial seizures until I had enough with them. They bother me so much. I don't even have a brain tumor. This one isn't really genetic. I have no idea what's wrong with me.
I had horrible acne for about 4-5 years. I went vegan and I stopped getting pimples. My mother had horrible acne too. She and I suffer with acne scars. I think mine are worse because the acne medicine really burned my face. My mom also said I stopped getting acne because of the birth control pills. I don't know... Makes me question about my hormone levels and female pattern baldness.
I shaved my hair off and I wear a wig now. I got annoyed with being ridiculed by classmates, my father, and my sister.
NOTE: Veganism did not cause my hair to fall out. It was falling out way before I was a vegetarian and then a vegan.
The worse part was being sexually assaulted last year. I just wanted to go to college, but nope. I had to go home for my safety. I gained so much weight and in my defense- I am purposely trying to look unattractive. It's not healthy mentally and physically, it's awful. I believe it is also ruining my relationship with my boyfriend of 3 years. My doctor is going to have a fit when she sees me and my blood test. I still think the assault could have been prevented if I went to a different type of college. Yeah, I'm still really p***ed off about that. I cry about each month out of anger because of what happen.
Yeah, someone found me attractive, shut up. I don't regret shaving my hair off and I prefer wearing wigs.
I apologize for the bad grammar, spelling, missed words, etc. I'm writing out of anger and I think too fast when I write. | |
Im sorry to hear of the sufferings you have endured, it seems the worst is over for the most part, you can look at it that way. I know what its like to have a serious acne problem, it sucks, and many people face the same problem. Try to be positive, look at the blessings you have. I would also reccommend exercise because it will help you emotionally, to help get rid of depression, anger, anxiety.. a number of things. Jesus knows your pain and he'll always lend an ear to your prayers : ) God bless.
Praying for ya girl!
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