I'm a 33 year old single mother of 2 children, I have anxiety and depression in 2009 thinking that taking medicines for a couple of months would take this away forever. Guess what, it didn't....it came back in 2011, why I don't know. I don't even know why I'm depressed, I cry, I'm sad, I want to be in bed all day, I can't sleep, my mind is working 100 miles an hour, I shake, I take like 8-10 pills a day to be able to be normal to a certain point and it sucks. Why am I sad, unhappy, depressed, angry, annoyed...I sometimes wish I wasn't here, what's the point of living like this but I do stop and thing about my children, nobody will love or care for them the way I will. Can't I just be normal and happy, I literally feel crazy, not being able to handle my emotions, drinking to much, being uncontrollable, my friends making fun of my crazy pills, not being able to keep a relationship am I always going to feel like this? Useless, loveless, unwanted, weird, crazy, an emotional wreck. All I want is to figure out what started all this and why......... | |
