1. My sister 2 little sisters both get all the attention the youngest is 3 and the other one is 13 a year younger than than me, but i am constantly hidden in there shadows as they get all the attention.
2. My parents have split up and i just get thrown around at each of there houses as if i have feelings or cares in the world.
3. My friends a i like all my friends but they are just sometimes full of crap they say one thing to your face then back stab you and it just get me upset.
4. I wanted to go to my friends house to sleep but i am not allowed because i have to tidy my room even thou it's my sisters mess, my sister gets a call off of her friend saying do you want to go out and she were allowed and i just got stuck locked in my bedroom with no life.
I am only 14 and it feels like my life is over and i just feellike runing away or something worse but i remembered my friend doing this she hated her life then killed herself, i miss her loads but dont understand why she wouldnt tell me
Now i no how she feels, i feel like doing the samee................... | |
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i dont have two sisters bt i have a four year old brother who gets on my nerves 24/7
my parents are splitting up
and better yet i'm single with no true friends
i feel lke nobody understands becuase... they dont
you should think about it seriously.
they say say every dog has it's day.
but some people can turn that day into an entire lifetime.
in the future you could be living it up at justin biebers funeral with me and everyone els who hates him laughing at how
miserable you used to be.
but just keep in mind that your day might have came and gone but not have noticed.
your day could be waiting.
or
you will be miserable for all of your life living off toaster waffles and working for minimum wage at some store that doesn't get much customers, and the boss is thinking of laying you off.
it's a gamble
a gamble that everyone takes
it's called life
and some times
it sucks
i know exactly how you feel, i have 4 younger sisters
my only true friend that i ever had is dead
the girl that i love shall never know the truth
i have held the knife to my wrist.
i knew that there would be no turning back.
then i thought of those very breif moments where i was happy
then i thought, isn't life worth anouther go?
so i dropped the knife and went on living.
it has been the very same ever since.
i am now 14
it has been 2 years since i tried to kill myself.
i am waiting for that day to come.
nothing has changed.
but i am fighting anything that gets in my way.
i struggle to make it through the week.
i have recently downed a full bottle of cough syrup to ease the pain.
it worked.
but when the effects of it wore off, all my problems where back and they where worse.
I HATE MY LIFE
but i'm not going to end it
i don't believe in god,
but there is somthing watching over me making sure i dont
end it all
when i'm about to, i hear a voice in the back of my head holding me back
it might be my will power, i always did have a really good will power.
i am also very persistant, in my case if there was a way for somthing to be done i would do it that way.
so i might kill myself
and i might not.
i'm going to see in 10 years time if life was worth the wait
i will most likly take a large amount of medication for a peacful death.
just do what i'm doing and wait it out!
if it doesn't work, go ahead and do it!
your only being human
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