LIFE SUCKS

hello. my advice is that you need to place closure on this. it is haunting you and guilt is apparent. if someone is going to check out, they are going to check out. simply put. there is nothing you could have done to make things better. you were only 15. give yourself a break. celebrate his existence and do not feel guilty. suicide is a chronic, dormant disease that stays with people once they first try to commit it. apparently, you must have been the only good thing in his life, despite whatever it was that he was suffering from. give yourself a break and know that he is watching over you. your job now is to be a strong mother that is a survivor. remorse for your loss. however, you MUST find closure and stop blaming yourself. you were ONLY 15. may he rest in peace. and YOU start living your life. I'm sure he would've wanted you to be happy and make sure you watch your daughter and make sure there is no heredity of mental illness. that's what you can do. prevent your daughter from living a miserable life. suicide happens and people get angry. make sure you survive and make sure you pay attention to your daughter and all the warning signs. peace out.

G'day. I lost mom when I was 24. It was a suicide. I loved her very much and i didn't know......It was quite the shock. It still is actually. That was 10 yrs ago. At the time, I was involved with someone who pretended to love me. She did like nothing had happened, her mom was still alive, what did she care, right. I went through the funeral process alone. I assisted my father with the arrangements. I quit my job cause they wouldn't give me the time off required. I should of dumped her right then and there, the bitch, she totally ignored my sadness. It's hard to move on but at least you have a daughter to express yourself to. I imagine she could provide at least a listening ear. Since I'm a guy, I was expected to forget about it. You would think that in Canada, someone would help or listen or direct you somewhere to get the proper help. Canadians are cold, uncaring, selfish, prejudiced (I'm french speaking and I have an accent when I talk). They say they care but really are just looking to fill your body with pills and meds. Canadian society is sick and disgusting. Like a good capitalist, they only help the ones who can afford it. Money talks in Canada. Canada has the sme suicide rate "per capita" than the USA and that's scary. They ignore suicide victims and the survivors. I'm alone at least you are not. Lucky you.........nobody loves me........maybe mom was right.......I should disappear too!

People commit suicide because they are cowards. They don't have the mental fortitude to live a full life..either they hate themselves or they hate the world or both. I had one of my best friends hang himself a few years ago. I don't know why he did it but, I do know there was no reason for it..When people kill themselves, they forget that it ruins everyone elses' life..they take a big piece of everyone that loved them with them..but they don't care..all they want is out..which would also make them selfish.

The point is, your boyfriend killing himself was not your fault..do you hear me? IT IS NOT YOUR FAULT. He made his choice, and it had nothing to do with you. He was the way he was before you met him. I had a girlfriend a few years ago..we were together for about 3 years, and she died from an overdose. Even though it wasn't suicide, it hurts more than I ever would have imagined. So, on that note, I know how you feel. Be strong, life's a real bitch. at least it's not easy..or it would be a slut.j/k :> keep your chin up ok?? things do get better..and they will!

Your life is a hard one but remember God will restore what was taken in the next world.