does it all really happen for a reason? | Posted by anonymous at August 10, 2010 | Tags: Attitude 2010 August |
this is my first post i ran along this site because i typed "i hate my fucking life" in the google search bar and this is what popped up.since i was young my mother always loved me less from the other kids,i was more tan compared to my white siblings and also from her own insecurities of her nose,always made fun of mine...i never realy noticed mine and i mean some people made fun of me but i thought it went with me,but when your own mother makes you go to the doctors and say "my nose is broken can you pay for my nose job?" that really just traumatized me..than having my sister be beautiful and perfect hurt because to my mother i was always ugly and never cared about,i was mostly beaten realy..(sigh) eventualy i fell in love witha boy whom i loved for 6years..but he loved someone else and although i knew he was cheating i didnt have the confidence (thanks to my mom) to leave him so i accepted it and late at night layed in bed asking god why me..when i knew he was with her.eventualy he got engaged to her and depression fell over me.my sis got married to a realy sexy wealthy young guy and looked beautiful on her wedding day..jealousy killed me.iv worked at a pizza place for six years and saved up 20,000 dollars only to have my parents take the money..(sigh) it hurts because all i ever wanted was to be loved and when your own mother tells you she doesnt care it impacts your whole life..it makes you think if your own parents dont love you..who will? is there really a god? do things really happen for a reason?? i highly doubt it.im just waiting to die i cant even look in the mirror anymore...im suffering a depresion and i feel like soon i will make my own journey maybe run away some where far. | |
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my yahoo : justfraspclfrnd@ymail.com
They can all be as pretty as they want, but they'll never be half the person you already are. People who treat others like this seem well off, but they're not, usually because they meet other ugly people like themselves.
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