LIFE SUCKS

life sucks

ok. my parents moved to abroad when i was 7. now i'm 16 and i've been living to my ount's house. i've got great family and so on. i've never had problems that my parents are in abroad cause i know that they are doing this for me. but i'm fat. i'm not 100 kilos but i'm enough fat to be called fat. the problem is that i've lost weight and everyone was saying how pretty i was and so on. but then i've gained it once again and now i'he more than ever been. everyday i here them saying that i should get thin, that they will throw me on a diet, that they will control me. it sounds agrassive for me and when i said i dod't like the way they are talking to me they said they don't like walkking with me cause they are ashamed. i know they are doing and saying this for me, but i'm done by saying that they are right. cause they are not. i'me done by hearing their remarks. my classmate died two days ago with whom i;ve never been ok, because i thought she was too tight and i was not able to be her friend and whole class was making fun of her, i feel a little bit guilty for her. i heard that my cousin with whom i was grown up and who i love the most may die and very soon. and you know what i think it's a little bit hard to tell me that i should not eat one ice cream because i will get fat and that noone will like me ever. now i don't have any wish to live on.