Iím middle aged. I have a masterís degree. Iíve never been married. Never fathered children. Havenít even dated in years. Iíve been suffering depression for my whole adult life. Been in and out of therapy and on and off of antidepressants.
I do have some friends. I had a job in one end of the state and all my friends lived in the other end of the state. So, I left that job when I got a job offer in the end of the state that my friends live in. I had hoped that I would be happier by being in closer proximity to my friends. The job I left was good. I was treated well by my coworkers and highly regarded by my supervisors. The job I got sucked. I was crapped on and pushed around by those I needed cooperation from, to make a long story short. Mainly because I was willing to see clients on Fridays and my processing assistant didnít want to because she wanted to be able to take her friday afternoon naps in her office as she had for the ten years previous to my arrival there. So, she made life suck for me. She had been there for ten years and knew how to manipulate the work flow to create stress on me.
Eventually, I cracked from the stress and got fired and now I am unemployed. My supervisor basically didnít give a shit about what I was up against. After all, I was the new guy. Her solution was to ask me to resign. I refused; so, she fired me. Because I got fired, my chances of reemployment in my field are slim to none.
I worked hard for years to get to this point in my life. I havenít even been working in this field long enough to have a midlife crisis. I really just got started because it took so long to get here only to be fuked over by some christian bitch with a highschool diploma. Iím done with life. Can I die now? Jesus, please save me from your followers as they really make life suck.