i'm going to start of saying my like sucks but only recently. it might sound ok to you and i might have to agree with you but hear me out, this summer has made me realise that i am unsociable and that as a 16 year old girl living with my parents it sucks. they are so lovely sometimes but sometimes its my dad that bugs that hell out of me. its not a big deal to relatives that visit because they don't see it but to me he is so annoying. he ruins my day and makes me cry all the time! i really cant explain it but its the smallest things he does. when he's had a drink he just ruins a family day, he is moody and not that fair. my mum is beautiful and does everything!!!!! for us. i feel i'm not doing enough for her, i upset her and as my brother is married and living far away i feel i have to support my mum because she's sort of alone. she loves my dad and doesn't see what i see. he's really nice i guess but sometimes he changes and makes me so upset.
basically i'm really sensitive. i've only been this way since i was 11. i used to be the strongest and most confident child and had a pretty decent childhood but now i cry over the smallest things for ages and keep making my life worse. im so not confident! i think i'm bipolar but im not sure. this summer i've only met up with family and this one girl who's my cousin, you could call her a best friend, my age, same school but i really don't like her at the moment. she's been making me feel unhappy recently because she doesn't contact me at the moment. she's been hanging around with this other girl and doesn't invite me round to their sleepovers. it's wierd coz I DO EVERTHING WITH MY COUSIN and i feel it's only when she gets bored then she wants to talk to me. i've been EXTREMELY BORED and like suicidal bored because i literally have no-one to meet up with. friends at school, well i stopped meeting up with them outside school to support my cousin who used to have problems with her friends. now i have the problems and i have no friends. i'm so bored that i'm forced to do revision because there is no other option.
i think i just need someone to advise me to live a little, please i think i need some advice. i've missed alot out even though i've written a book's length but i would really appreciate it if there was someone out there who made me realise how lucky i am.
i want to become stronger, and smile more often. i'm moody all the time and i don't appreciate ANYTHING.
please, thanks :(