My life is worthless, and obviously so am I. My parents and brother beat me up as a child and generally emotionally abused me and instilled my thoughts that I am worthless. I strive to be a worthwhile person and a good person, but it gets me nowhere but in a deep pit of despair, disappointment and loneliness. I graduated from college, am in shape, own a home and am intelligent and pretty. I have tried to make my good, but I guess I am not good enough! Because I am a failure and deeply unhappy. Only one person, who I can barely tolerate, on this planet vaguely cares about me. I cannot find a man who I can marry because no guys I like-like me back. I am now 43 and if I don't get pregnant like "tomorrow" I will have zero children in life, (oh and as the good Christian girl, I don't have sex outside of marriage), so unless sperm is on sale at the pharmacy for like $10, I'm outta luck. That means no family, no one to attend my funeral when I die, just alone and pathetically unhappy for the rest of my life. I only have one friend who takes me for granted and treats me like pure shizz. I have no other friends, got laid off at work, and my mom (who barely loved me at all) just died.
P.S. Thank you all for sharing your troubles, I have enjoyed reading every one of them, and I appreciate REAL problem--instead of my fake friend whose main problem in life is she had a bad hair day. Thanks also to the person who signed off "thanks and Fuck You" to all the readers at the end of their story; it really brightened my day because of the raw honesty and I really relate brother. | |
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