I am 59. My kids are grown and grown and all doing well. I am well employed and hae been for 20 years. I am a person who will probably never find this site again it is midnight on Friday night.
You know my life has been good. i raised two kids when their dad left, the wen to college and after that I finished college. I work for an Ivy League magazine (20 years) and some where along the line life became worthless. I made good money but all for advertising I have no idea why life is so rotten. Peole with Ivy educations want more, I want less. I will quit my job soon and why, who knows. But is certainly to find somethintg more rewardingt than supporting a rich magazine
Am I embalanced, not centered?Who the hell knows. I just know that what I do adn where I am at 60 sucks. almost retirement age but not enough money after raising two kids alone. geez. i am old enough to write this but will never find it to see if anyone answers. It is midnight, my husband is sleeping and has not a clue that I am lost in my life.
I have worked so hard to raise two boys, put them through college whe they wer eready and finally got my degree after then, not for some "poor mom" deal, that was just how it hapened. Now my kids are raised I am remarried and my mother has dementa and I now am the only sib in the area to takecare of her and it is doing me in.
There is no answer, I am stuck and she is sweeet but lost in space - and life sucks. | |
You've achieved a lot, raising kids, your own degree, remarrying, it's no surprise you haven't exactly had the luxury to think about who you are and what makes your life full, or what have you lost or you miss.
You should talk to somebody, most importantly to your spouse - no one should bear this alone. He can and should help. Both with making you happier and helping you with your mother - it must be a great burden to you.
Give him a chance, be patient while you explain to him how meaningless it all feels now, and how lost you are. He might take it a lot better than you expect.
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