Okay, first of all none of you guys should really be reading this because truth be told, my life doesn't suck that. It really doesn't. It could suck so so so so so so so much more. I just sort of want to write down my suckish feelings today and I happened to find this convenient website. I know some of you guys with WAY WAY WAY WAY WAY WAY worse lives will be really annoyed at me for saying this stuff so please don't even pay attention to what I'm saying; I just really wanted to write something down.
Well, okay so I happen to go to this incredibly rich and white school where 99% of the population is incredibly fashionable and the other 1% are considered losers and whatnot. My family isn't rich, we are just pretty average so I always feel horrible when I spend lots of money buying clothes and trying not to be a loser. I have like 7 really close friends and like maybe 15-20 acquaintances (but they aren't all from that school). I know that sounds like a lot, but you would not BELIEVE how popular the people here are. They all have like 16 close friends and 100 acquaintances. I am NOT joking or exaggerating in any way. 90% of the girls at our school have over 500 friends on facebook, if that says anything. So basically, I'm actually a loserish/average person at our school. I so wish I could be a more outgoing and less awkward person. My parents are also incredibly smart and put all this pressure on me to do good in school and win tons of awards. I can't even keep track of the stuff I'm supposed to participate in and it's making me really anxious. I have no idea when everything is starting or ending, and what I'm supposed to do. To make it worse, I have just been failing all these quizzes and I don't know what to do because my grades will drop and ARGH. I am seriously worried sick about how to bring up my grades right now. I'm really unorganized and I always forget really important things. I have to do a bajillion things like try not to fail my life, go to chinese school, join 6 clubs, get community service, do homework (our school is really good...which also means we have a crapload of homework), do Girl Scout projects, play piano, play tennis, make friends, study REALLY hard to not fail the next quizzes/tests, win intellectual awards, study for SAT, try to be more responsible and help around the house, try to be more outgoing, take leadership roles in school, and probably get a job to pay my parents for buying me all this stuff. I'm also sick right now with some kind of virus that is going around school but I guess that doesn't really make any difference. | |
And talk to your teacher and ask them if you can get some extra-credit work to bring up your grades. That worked for me!
To you, your life is a bag of stress induced self-hate that never ceases to give up. Fuck life. Fuck people, and fuck everyone else.
Good luck.
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