LIFE SUCKS

i hate my life too

wow i love how hopeless i can be but i hate it at the same time. the more i try the harder life puts it in my ass. the people that i love the most hurt me the most. i can never seem to escape this yearning desire to be happy. it totally sucks most of the time. i really want to feel like there is a fucking purpose to anything but i cant find one. i really want to feel a connection with someone before the connection takes another nose dive from 30,000 feet. I dont suck but i feel like i do almost always. i just really dont care for much of anything. i fall in love too easy. i'm generally mean because i feel if i'm not than i'm not doing something right. i dont like messing with other peoples experiences so i like to be alone, keep my bull to myself so as not to infect the rest of the population with my idealistic self centered egotistical bull shit. i care about people so i stay away from them as much as possible. i've been destroyed by the same woman for four years (married her 5 months ago) after i sat in jail for a 9 month stit just one month prior. in the first two months she cheated on me twice. threatened to call the cops like 50,000,000 fucking times cause i'm i dick head (apparently the cops have a vested interest in pissy people). she's been moving in and out for the past couple months dating other guys telling me everday how much she hates me and just pretty much anything to make me feel like a shit-terd low life everytime we speak. has done basically everything in her power to end the marriage. beating me around (i'm the husband) i dont hit women anymore why cause its illegal not because i think its wrong. i would never hit a woman again cause nothing is worth spending 1 hour in jail.. so now i'm on to being a male whore letting someone else raise my kids and staring a new life.