I really don't know. My life sucks, badly. Let's start with family...none of them reallly care and I get ignored a lot, my brother tries to kill himself a lot and my other brother I never, ever see because him and my mum fell out. The rest of my family are ok, I just feel like they don't care, because they don't act it you know? Then let's start with friends. Friends are a load of SHIT! My best friend I met like 10/11 years ago has turned into a right slag and all she does it talk about herself, and everyone follows her around like she's it. I make new friends and suddenly have none, due to her. Also, I'm the 'nerdiest' girl and most 'ugly' girl in school. (I've been callled and named it a fair amount of times.) so in otherwords, I'm hated, bullied, laughed at and nobody takes notice. I had one boyfriend like 2 years ago and he did stuff to me I wasn't fine with. (I won't go in detail, but I hated him.) :( but I am still a virgin. I currently like this guy for 4 years, (began to love him) told him. A couple of months ago, he didn't like me one bit. Yes, I did cry...yes, I did try to kill myself, I mean, you wouldn't know how much I loved him. But he took everything as a joke and he took ME as a joke. Everything I ever have or get is taken or done better by someone else. Media skills (only skills I hve) - done better by my best friend. Boys- taken by friends. My life just, isn't mine anymore. I know I sound like a whiny little baby I just need to let it out to someone. I hate my life. Either end it or restart it. Ending seems like the best option up to now.