LIFE SUCKS

hate my life

I hate my life. Lets start from the beginning. im 13 years old, when i was 1 my dad went to jail for drugs. i used to see him like every year, he was in jail in boston, ad im in NY. i live with my mom, and sister. my mom cant work, we live on welfare and she has cancer. my grandparents live next door to me. i love twilight but im always getting made fun of because of it and i cry a lot. im not so skinny and im not so pretty. i hate my whole family and i walked in on my my mom with her secret boyfriend and it traumatized me. i still cant get it out of my head and i hate every aspect of my life. i have friends but they might as well not even be my friends because im the one who starts the conversation or makes the plans. if i didnt do this, then they probably wouldnt even acknowledge my presence. i cry myself to sleep almost every night and i pray to god that i wish i died. sometime i think about killing myself...i think no one would really care if i died. my cousin and i used to dream of running away and never returning. i still wish i ran when i had the chance. i have no use in life except being hated or ignored. maybe one day my wish will finally come true and i will die young....or maybe ill just kill myself.