So i am 17 and my mom hates me and loves my twin sis. Go figure. I always try to be the good kid. I never smoke, dont hav sex, an rarely drink. My sis does all of that. She is always in her giant room with her door locked on the computer doing whatever she wants. And i am stuck in the basement in a room smaller than her closet getting yelled at because i was doing homework on my laptop in my room, which hasnt had a lock in over a year. I cant even use a laptop for homework in my room and she can do whatever she wants. I havent gotten any money from my parents for anything in years, and they give her allowance and still pay for her to go shopping every week.
I cant go more than 12 hours without getting yelled at or scolded for something by my mom. Whenever i am cleaning my room or doing my homework my mom comes down the stairs and yells at me for not having my stuff done and walks away, then i dont feel like doing any more of it. Now whenever i do my homework or clean i am so paranoid that if i hear any noise upstairs i just stop and prepare for her to come down and nag me about something. This causes me to not always get my stuff done in return having her yell even more and going into a neverending spiral. Now my grades are bad and i feel like shit all the time.
My mom makes me feel like i am worthless. We just got in a fight and now i wanna just run away cause i hav nothing going for me. My twin sister has looks, straight A's, was on varsity freshman year for hockey and is getting a scholarship to college for lacrosse. My dad was in the majors, my mom graduated from like harvard or something, my brother made varsity hockey as a sophemore. I dont hav looks, i hav bad grades and i cant even make varsity hockey as a senior. Everyone in my family has had sex and everyone is married except for my twin, and i cant even get a girlfriend. I just feel like shit. Does anyone else think my life is a piece of shit?