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Posted by louanne at December 4, 2010
Tags: 2010 December  Health  Meaninglessness  Poverty

How the hell did I get here? I have 1 thing keeping me alive and that is my 2 boys the only good thing to come out of my awful marriage. I am 35 living in a council house, have no job, no money and no friends. I have psoriasis, fibromyalgia and epilepsy. Drs don't even want to know anymore either as nothing they can do except pop me more pills. My husband left me cas I can't have sex due to excuisaiting pain. I am very overweight, ugly and have come to the conclusion men only want sex so Am faced with a lonely future. I find it hard to go out as I'm either in pain or skint. I have had 4 years of my ex dragging me thru court and feel like I'm hanging on by fingertips. All counselling hasn't helped and I feel like I'm going mental. If I lose my kids I don't see any point. I used to be thin happy pain free working and loving life. Stuck back in the crap village I couldn't wait to leave and want to cry til I feel no more. Just want to disappear. Don't want an afterlife. Just to feel and be nothing.


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By anonymous at 19,Dec,10 02:29

go to www.emofree.com hope this helps.


By anonymous at 19,Dec,10 02:37

I'm the one who left the website www.emofree.com for you, its called EFT (Emotional Freedom Technique) it will guide you to tap on meridian points, to relieve negative energy, I know how it sounds, It will not change your circumstances, but it may reduce some pain. I'm sorry you feel bad and are having a hell of a time.


By anonymous at 19,Dec,10 11:09

I'M ALSO LONELY AND DIVORCED,BUT I'M A MALE WHICH MEANS I DON'T HAVE MY CHILDREN.SO YOUR RIGHT THEY ARE A BLESSING.DID YOU EVER GET TESTED FOR LYME?IT'S HARD TO TEST FOR SO MAKE SURE YOU GO TO THE RIGHT DR.THERE IS A PLACE IN CAL.WHERE THE TEST NEEDS TO BE SENT.ALSO,PRAY.YOU CAN PRAY TO WHATEVER YOU WANT BUT,GOD THROUGH JESUS CREATED THE EARTH SO YOU GO TO THE SOURCE.EMPTY YOUR HEART TO HIM AND YOU'LL KNOW IF HE IS REAL OR NOT.START EACH DAY ANEW WITH HOPE.IT'S HARD,VERY HARD.BUT REMEMBER GOD LOVES YOU!JUST LET HIM.
By anonymous at 19,Dec,10 19:41

Seriously, do you think that by typing in all caps it makes your message seem more real or important? It just makes you look desperate. Why do people who believe in this mythology insist on making others believe? I think it's because if others believe they will feel less silly and pathetic.
By anonymous at 19,Dec,10 20:04

Seriously? Leaving negative comments to people on here who already feel bad enough is just wrong. You are just spreading more pain around. If you don't believe than that is your choice.
By anonymous at 20,Dec,10 00:20

And how is your comment not negative? That response obviously wasn't directed toward the OP. It was directed toward the jackass that goes around telling everyone to pray to solve their problems. As he is allowed to spread his ignorant viewpoint, shouldn't I be allowed to spread the truth?
By anonymous at 21,Dec,10 19:06

I am no better than a jackass. I do not feel superior to you in any way. But I also would urge you to think about God, and His Son who will be born in just a few days. Believe it or not, God does love you, just as He loves those who already are believers. Remember the story about the 99 sheep? In scripture, the Good Shepherd goes in search of the one missing sheep. The Good Shepherd is Jesus, and He wants you to come home to Him this Christmas. "For I tell you this, there will be far more rejoicing in heaven over the one who was lost and is now found, than over the 99 who were never lost."
By anonymous at 21,Dec,10 19:33

Yes, and if you were born in India you would be a Hindu and you would have written about some Hindu fairy tale. Why would you want to live your life according to some ancient book that has been proven obsolete by science?
By anonymous at 22,Dec,10 12:35

imaginary jebus says sup


By dr.house at 20,Dec,10 16:32

dear louanne,
i feel your pain thats some hard things you have been through i just want to say that no matter what happens you are a very strong woman. so remember that everytime you wake up in the morning, you have your boys and that's great its giving you the strength, i hope you will find a way to get better and i hope you will get healthy soon.
you should try get every help you can to get yourself toghether only for the sake of keeping your kids with you. i wish you the best of luck.
if you do manange to do so, just get the hell out of where you are and start a new life. i'm crossing my fingers


By alex lyrics at 26,Dec,10 03:43

its alittle late but dr. phils book self matters can help u
By anonymous at 26,Dec,10 18:30

Are you getting paid to advertise Dr. Phil and his books? You're so full of shit, you know


By anonymous at 26,Mar,11 03:43

FAT UGLY BITCH
By anonymous at 10,Apr,11 12:45

classy. you're an idiot


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