I read most of the stories here so I felt I can share mine and perhaps get some advice. I am 26, single, quite educated with a teaching job and aspiring to study further. Being from a Moslem third world country make independence impossible(culturally and economically)for a woman but I have tried to do the best I could do. I argued and fought with my father, who is EXTREMELY abusive. He has been beating my mother and both his daughters for the past many many years. As a child and as an adult I have seen domestic abuse to an extent that I have internalized it as a part of domestic life. My father is insanely controlling and my mother who was 14 years his junior never stood up against him. He tried to stop me from going to college and finding a job, but I argued and fought and was able to complete my Masters and get a job in the same college. This opportunity gave me a lot of independence if not a lot of money. Then he started forcing me to get married to some one I did not approve of. I was mercilessly beaten, but I didnt give up and threatened to commit suicide if he didnt stop. Thankfully, my mother intervened. Some time after this incident, I met a very supportive sweet guy from a very poor family who belongs to a different sect and fell in love with him. His hardwork got him a scholarship for Phd in an American university, and he had to leave. I was very very depressed... athough he contacts me often and keeps telling me that he will not give up on me, I feel very insecure. I am trying to get enrolled in the same university but in a household where everything from letters to phonecalls are monitored, I feel the impossibility of making it work... On the other hand, we are both unwilling to give up on each other... I feel terribly sad, sometimes and wish to escape somehow... but e answer is how? I dont wish to elope,though my boyfriend suggested it ( or perhaps I am too afraid to elope).At the same time my father is constantly pressurizing me to marry... I feel very tired and alone. what should i do?