LIFE SUCKS

can't get ahead

well i guess it started when i was 3, my dad tried to stab my mom with a steak knife. He went away for attempted murder. My mom struggled to raise 5 kids. We lived outta our car most of the time.Then when I was 10 my mom who was an alchoholic went out and was killed by a guy, for spilling a beer in his truck. Then, I went into about 10 foster homes, where i was beaten and locked in my room.I lucked out and was adopted by a nice family. I dropped out of school and worked in masonry. at night i went to school for 3 years, then i became a pipefitter and everything was good. felt like i made it. This economy hit, and I lost it all. My apartment, my Jeep, and had to live in the woods for 3 months.Then had to move into a trailor on my brothers property, and everyday i get outta bed and go look for jobs that just aint there. I try the internet, word of mouth, newspapers, just nothing.I have been diagnosed with ADD, OCD, and also insomnia, and once emotionally disturbed.cant sleep, dont wanna eat,dont wanna get outta bed. I remember saying to myself "if i kill myself then whose gonna take care of my dog"?Dog saved my life.