So my life isn't THAT bad, but it is pretty stressful, and that stress just keeps building and building. I wonder when things will start to look up, or get more worse. I grew up in a family that was verbally abusive (my father) I don't look back on that though, my father and I have a good relationship because he "changed" Which he really did. I don't think I've ever been single, but I'm not a floozy. My relationships last years until they finally break apart. I have Trichotillomania, due to something traumatic that happened in my life (I'm not sure what it is) My last boyfriend I met online unintentionally, I love him to death and he loves me, but sometimes he is verbally abusive. I just shrug it off and go throughout my life as normal. Thing is, I used to live in the states, but now I'm in Canada. I can't work, I can't go to school, and I have no friends. I got VERy attached to a cat here. She was my only friend, and she died a sudden death. She had cancer. I took care of her like a baby, she couldn't eat on her own so I had to syringe it. I held her in my arms as she died a week later. I miss her dearly. I attach easily, and detaching is difficult. it just seems like my mental health is deteriorating. we recently got two new kittens. One opened up right away, the other is scared to dath and hiding in a messy junk room. We can't find her, and I don't know when we will. It breaks my heart everyday. | |
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