I am a sophmore in college and I may have just failed out of Umich. It sucks because this is a really good ass school and my parents will be greatly dissapointed. In school the only friends I made were asian even though I am a black guy. I even ended up joining an asian frat.... I told everyone I was gonna become an aerospace engineer but I have just been teh suck at the physics and calc classes. Its not even like I cant do the work, its just I have no motivation to do it. My family is poor and i live in Detroit. Some times I even starve at home, and my dad is taking out loans just for me to go to school. How am I going to explain this to my family and friends. Without college I am nothing but another black guy in Detroit. I dont feel anything but disappointment; I try to drown it out but it only works so long. I probably lost the best girl that has ever happend to me and I have to live in the shitty house that is falling apart. for another year before I can come back to university. I'm so FUCKED. I'm just waiting for the mail to come saying i failed.....shit. seppuku
My parents dont love each other anymore, my dad almost died of a heart attack recently, I never have any feelings, and when I do it is short lived, I suck at school.... GAHHH I cant end up like other worse stories on this site. | |
for your parents sadly love isn't eternal, you're stuck in the middle but you've to be good, it's your parents, protect your mom and your siblings if you have and your father seems to trying hard for you so you can do it, even it's seems bad and hard , do it
Your parents have done their part, they gave you a home where you could focus on education. You've wasted that opportunity. Being black is not the problem, you are. Pull yourself up by the bootstraps and make something of yourself. Your other options are prison or death.
WHAT are you interested in ? I was going to be an attorney to escape the hood and to please my family. years later I have debt and no job. Your life is quasi sucky. you are still young you are at an impasse... Use this time to make better choices. Ok if its 2 late b/c your post is old... I hope you research alternative programs. Follow your passion. spend time with your family especially your dad. read the unemployed folks with more than 60,000 in debt like myself and thank God, budha or your "lucky" stars
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