LIFE SUCKS

My life

I'm 29 years, married with 2 kids, so you think to yourself his life can't be that bad..wrong. My life sucks beyond words. I've been married now for 9 years to a women that I've known since middle school. She doesn't work and only recently started going to school. I've told her threw out the marriage that she has to work, but everytime she gets a job, she quits it within 2 weeks due to some lame ass excuse. I do all of the cooking,cleaning,laundry and work 40+ hours. I've wanted a divorce for several years but with having 2 kids its hard to leave so I'm stuck here. I've told her many times that she has to work and all her response is "I will". Yeah right. I see all of my friends that got married and their wife's work and they take vacations and own their houses. I live in an apartment and the only traveling we did was to michigan. I want what my friends got but never will have it cause of who I'm with. I doubt she will even last to graduation...that's the way she is. I'm unhappy with my life. I accomplished nothing and have nothing. I hate struggling all the time. I wish I never gotten married so young. That's a regret that I have to live with. Do you know how long its been since I had fun? I can't even remember. She wonders why I had an affair. About 4 years ago I had an affair with one of her friends and I felt great, like myself. I was going to leave my wife but then she said she was pregnant and so I stayed. Only for the child. When I was with the other women I was happy, complete, smiling. I guess that was the last time I was happy. Why me? Why does my lfe suck?