My life is crap. I have no friends, no one calls, no one wants to know me and I don't know what I've done. I'm 30, have no job, no boyfriend, no friends and a mortgage and bills to pay. My ex has taken up with a girl half his age and our unborn child is dead.I think about it every day. I have nothing left, no one to count on, no one to talk to and nowhere left to go. I was fired from my last job for having depression, only to find out that the position has now been filled by a friend who has moved from another company to take up my job! People don't reply to my calls, texts or emails and I just don't know what I've done. I might as well be dead as I appear to have ceased to exist to anyone. I can't even properly cry anymore. I'm just numb. I really hate existing. I try to be positive but it never works out and I always end up getting screwed over by those I trust. I wish my life could be bright and happy again and full of friends but I feel as though I have a big sign on my head that says don't go near her she's weird or as if someone has spread rumours about me because this much rejection all at once isn't normal. I'm not a horrible person, but I feel like a social leper. It's awful. I thought I was through with being bullied and excluded. The way I see it, it's never going to end.