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Black Hole Love

Posted by ConstantSadness at February 26, 2011
Tags: Attitude  2011 February  Philosophical  Relationship

I long for the touch of a woman, a loving embrace, a passionate kiss, long talks that result in a lifting of the spirits. These are things that are foreign to me things i've seen only in movies, in songs, and in life. Will I ever experience these wonderful things that make life worth living? Probably not, all my fault due to not having enough courage to approach the opposite sex, low self esteem, no confidence, no money, basically all traits women find unattractive, I would imagine. Appearance wise I feel more beast than beauty. But that's cool, what am I'm going to do? I did not win the genetic lottery, yet I've seen people who look like me or worse with beautiful women which blows my mind. I guess personality goes a long away. I unfortunately have the personality of a Is life worth living when the most simple of all human emotions is never sated? Is it possible to go through life and never experience love? I'm around 30 so i've pretty much given up but it does warm the heart to think maybe it'll happen, deluding myself into thinking love is right around the corner when it's more like around the moon. In my early 20's I made love to a woman once and it was okay yet a forgettable experience, all lust and no love a one night stand or more like a 3 night stand, so i've had sex but it wasn't the way most normal people experience their first time. So i've had sex but never a girlfriend, weird right? I just want a girlfriend DAMMIT! is that too much to ask? I want to hold that love of my life in my arms squeezing her tightly, gazing into those beautiful eyes and spiraling into a whirlwind of ecstasy. A fantasy that will never become a reality unfortunately in my case. *sigh*


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By anonymous at 15,Mar,11 09:59

Least you had sex before. I didn't. Cheer up, because there is a 27 year old loser behind you. It's me.
By anonymous at 01,Jun,11 10:49


By anonymous at 15,Mar,11 23:30

you're right, it is a delusion. remember this: the person you are searching for is you. whatever traits you think you are going to find in this person is a side of you that is looking for permission to emerge. It's you, not someone else.

And yes, I get it, people are social, and part of what you want is just company and support, and a sex partner. Well think about this, what most people have is just that and no more... company and a sex partner (not so much support). Kind of like your 3 night stand that just goes on longer... until it becomes apparent somebody is cheating, or tired of the situation,etc.

I know you are missing something that you truly need, but realize that you are not alone. Very few people these days (always?) understand how to be in a good relationship, treat each other well, cooperate, share a vision, etc. So don't think you are the only one. Even people you see in 'relationships' may be feeling the same way as you. Of course they won't tell you that .. they'll only admit it anonymously .. or maybe to their close friends.

Just some of my observations. From what I've seen, despite what many of us were told as children, love is not something you are guaranteed in life. Much less romantic love. If you have any type of love at all, you have to count yourself luckier than some.

By anonymous at 16,Mar,11 00:33

u will surely get ur true love,just close ur eyes and see her face..................believe in love nothing else not even in marriage.i hate it...............gunjan

By anonymous at 17,Mar,11 16:39

Well if you want to have a different life in the future than take the steps to get there and see what happens. Go out and socialize somewhere to get some experience, not a bar or something at first but maybe a club or interest group or how about volunteering somewhere? You just need a little practice developing the skills of interacting with people. Make yourself do it even if it is uncomfortable at first. Soon what you are afraid of now will seem easy then you take the next step. Find a place to volunteer and go work there for a while then maybe some interest or church groups then go out with groups of people from these places casually then who knows you may meet someone special along the way. YOU must take the first steps to make things different though.

By anonymous at 18,Mar,11 08:14

You want an intelligent conversation from a chick? Dream on. Quit believing in fairy tales, television and Hollywood movies. Chicks actually prefer ugly dudes, as they want to be the pretty one in a relationship! '
Look at all the supermodels who married rock stars whose faces were uglier than an elephant's butt!

By anonymous at 29,Mar,11 22:18


By anonymous at 27,Jun,12 15:29

it'll happen..give it time. It's weird how it all of a sudden happens..but never when you want it to..I know.

I met the most beautiful woman i'd ever met by simply asking "what's wrong"? point is..don't be afraid to talk to women like you'd talk to a friend of the same sex.

Then if it ends..(in my case..They die suddenly with your baby) you spend the rest of your life wondering how the fuck you could ever do that again..) You sound like a very caring, smart will happen..just be careful who you choose to be with or it can destroy you.

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