Iam a 53 year old women,divorced and never had any children. I've made one mistake after another to get me to this point. I am in a job that brings me no joy and I go home every night to an empty house. I live paycheck to paycheck and though I have been in the same job for over twenty years, I make less money in 2011 then I did in 2002. I have family, but get very little, if any emotional support from them and have few friends. On my days off, lately I just spend the time in bed. I was married for 15 years, unhappily, and wanted to believe by divorcing I would find the love of my life. Instead I have found noone and lost myself in the process. Married men hit on me and at a vunerable time I got involved with someone. I fell in love with him, he left his wife, but not for me. He left for the other person he was cheating with and is now married to her. I have gotten to a point in my life, where there is truly no joy. I can't imagine living my life like this for another 10 years. It's been over 10 years since my divorce and never did I think I would still be alone. I feel like just a shell of a person, going through the motions of life. I realize there are alot of people who's lifes have been much tougher, yet I can't shake this loniness and being so empty. I cry daily because I feel as if I've got nothing. Maybe being so public with my emotions will lead me to a road of healing.