I hate my fucking life. My parents don't care about me anymore. My mom gave up, and my dad just sits around smoking his weed everyday. My sister is a real fucking cunt. My brother thinks he's far superior than me because he's had sex. Well whoopie fucking doo...
I hate my friends, of all. Which doesn't surprise me one fucking bit. Everyones all about having your back and being there. But when it actualy comes to being a fucking brother. Not a fucking chance.
Love how everyone walks all over me. Just because i'm a nice fucking kid.
Who cares if i like a girl and spend more time with her than you. And want to try and pursue something other than friendship.
Who cares if i'm trying my best to find a job, to keep my families mouth shut.
Who the fuck cares who i am... And i can't even say i do.
Its god damn sad to live in this fucking world with no help, no words of advice, nothing... Not one fucking thing.
Not to mention, i'm a fucking pussy when it comes to just getting rid of my virginity. I can't just take the 5 fucking minutes to get it over with... No
i just have to have morals when it comes to that.. I fucking hate myself.
I don't what i'm gonna do. Can't see myself doing anything in 5 years, let alone a month if this shit keeps getting worse...
And i've thought about letting go of it all. Pulling that trigger. Kicking the chair form under me. Dropping the fucking toaster in the bath tub.
But of course. I can't do it. I can't even get laid, even when its practiclly handed to me..
Just wish i had friends. Actually friends. And someone to say "I love you" too.
If i could just have a little leeway, just a tiny fucking sliver..
I would feel happier... But i doubt anything will happen..
I. Hate. My. Life.