LIFE SUCKS

my savior through life and my mentor

Alright so heres life, My mom pretty much was addicted to video games and did nothing but sit on her ass at home i hated her so much it wasnt even funny but my dad is stuck in the fucking 80s and doesnt know anything i hated them both but my family memebers just ganged up on me the youngest 9 years apart from the two oldest who beat me and 6 from my sister who was pretty much my mother in life all of my cousins were 5 years or older nobody was the same age as me i was always a lone wolf my friends are basically my family they were the only ones who cared i didnt understand why people liked me at all i pretty much was a loser to my self i tried to commit suicide about over a dozen times my parents cared but i hated them they loved me to death but they were just losers they both had no friends. But lets skip to the present pretty much i was introduced to smoking in 8th grade and never stopped im in the 9th grade now but also im the drug dealer of choice around town making bank in the 9th grade im only 14 my parents always drug tested me but i was always a genius i fooled them every time i pretty much had weed as my parent who helped me fight the depression every day bong toke after bong toke and rollin 2 g blunts till i died until it came to be that my parents think its more harmful then heroine even though i spent over 200$ on it every day i still made my own money fed myself only thing i did was live under their roof but they still dont understand i kicked down every wall in my room and pulled a machete on my mom but weed has always helped me survive throughout the days ive been depressed basically since i was born its like a disease i dont know how to fight i dont even understand it everyone calls me a druggie to make themselves feel better it kills me in the inside everyday i dont even talk to anyone in my life now i hate it i want it to end its not bad at all i think i just hate it God doesnt even anwser me when i ask for his guidance