Holy fuck, where to start? First off, my neighbors are meth-addled rednecks who are running a toxic waste dump mere feet from my house. They run junky, broken down equipment at all hours of the day and belch black fumes into my windows. There's another junkyard across the road and more meth-heads down the road. My house is falling apart, the windows leak, the floor creaks, there are silverfish and piss-ants everywhere. My stupid dogs piss all over everything and there's nothing I can do about it. I can't even move since I own the dump. I lost my job and since I'm in college now I don't have time to look for a new one.
Speaking of college, I'm a senior now. I'm not sure I'm going to get my diploma because no one ever tells me anything, I don't even know what my grades are. I'm painfully shy, entirely uninteresting, and have no self confidence. I'm 24 and I've never been on a date, had sex, or really had any kind of a relationship at all, meaningful or otherwise. I can't even fall back on my family, because most of them are dead. I've fallen in love twice, both times it's been completely unrequited because both times it turns out they were engaged to someone else. The first time didn't bother me too much. The second time was murder. Do you have any idea what its like to meet someone who's totally one of a kind, just the perfect complement and find out you'll never, ever have even the slightest chance? My whole life is completely fucking pointless, there is no meaning to anything that I do and no one will ever care about me.