My life sucks sucks and finally i am in a condition to google up the words "My life sucks" and stunned to see there is a website for people who are sharing the same shit...
I am complicated or is the world around me? my problem started when i was in college... my hardship started there.. my dad lost his business and overnight we had nothing left, with great difficulty i completed college...debts started surrounding my family..my wish was to do my higher studies in a foreign university! in spite of being the topper of the class, i was not able to go because of no money...i was on the road selling insurance policies for commission and made huge money and gave it to a education placement agent and lost all the money... am dumb...shit taker!!! big time... then started working to assist my family. when i was 21 i use to work like mad,,, i didnt have time for fun, love, movies, date or dinner.... i use to look at others and dream one day i will be happy like them...am 28 now...stil am dreaming and nothing has made me happy...ot might sound so silly... people who read this might think, is this a problem,,.. this is not a problem but it has become a frustation coz i come so close to happiness but in a fraction of second things change against me,,.. not once or twice for a decade.... am sick of hopes... hopes ruined me, i am good, honest, intelligent, truthful and trustworthy,.. but i cant reach even small happiness... no space for small satisfaction,,, when i see girls who lack discipline, flirts, bigtches, liars, cheaters, enjoy life to the maximum and they keep enjoying..am not the only good girl suffering,so many like me are there....
i wanted to get married and start living my life and once to taste the essence of happiness... but fate, is proving me wrong big time... i am dumped so much now after marriage, i feel what i had as single was enough and it was much better than what am feeling bad for now.... failures...are becoming part of my life..i hate failures..i am not even thinking of big fortune, money, jewellety, or any kind of luxury... i want to sit with my loved one for sometime and enjoy a sweet talk with him but it never happened...as i was unlucky to have any relationship in the past, i had all my dreams stored for longtime in a big pack,,, now not even one is getting true,,so i am so fucking frustated,,,, and i seriously feel my life sucks... before marriage,,i thought if not now, after marriage i will be happy,,,now what> ?>>> next birth? if god promises me that in next birth you will get all what you missed, i am ready to die now
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