I am a 13 year old black girl turning 14 in November. I hate my body and everything to do with it. When I was little, i was diagnosed with eczema so I had a scratching problem with my body. when scratching my body, marks started to appear all over my arms, legs, and everywhere else. Of course I am still ashamed to go to school because I have all these scratch marks everywhere so I try to cover up my whole body when it's possible. But that gets difficult in the summer. It gets really hot and then i have to wear short sleve shirts. I guess people notice them because they never say anything when they see them but have this disgusted look on their faces. When Im in school people always ignore me when i pass by. I feel like a complete nobody and have a really low self esteem. In all of my classes I just sit alone because no one wants to partner up with me. At the last resort, I have to go up to the teacher so he can partner me up with someone. Even in the lunch room I sit between 2 girls but they hardly talk to me. I had this really good best friend but she just moved to New York a couple of weeks ago so now i feel like a lifeless body just not supposed to be around. Like im not supposed to exist, just a useless girl. Every day i feel like crying in school cause i have no one to talk to. I have it so bad that every monday i have to go in with the Social Worker to just talk and play games with 3 or 4 other girls(because were like social outcasts). Every time i think of how i have to cover up my arms during school and basicly everywhere, I always shed tears(sniff):( | |
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I recognize myself in your story.
I have eczema since the age of 2.
Don't be ashamed of yourself, you don't have too.
Those who don't understand are idiots.
Your body will change during puberty and it may go away. :)
Teenage life is hard but hang on, it will make you stronger.
FIGHT GIRL ! ;)
you are still you, don't hate yourself..
everybody has good and bad side. they just don't know about your good side. I suggest you don't think about it, just socialize with them like other friends.
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