before high school, i went to a public middle school where the police showed up everyday and drug dogs sniffed our lockers after every lunch period. i have never been into drugs or anything that the cool kids did back then. i was the smart one, strait A's, honors classes, and was voted the prettiest girl in the eight grade. while this does great, i felt like i wanted more, something else, a challange. so my parents let my attend a boarding school where i could push myself academically.
when i came out of public school, i had so much self confidence that nothing could bring me down, i was proud of my life and my family. however, when i went to boarding school i was not the best at anything anymore. im now a senior and while i have tried as hard as i can, nothing has ever seemed to work for me at this new school.
there is a teacher here who i am close with, i would never want to do anything sexual with him at all, but he is just nice to talk to. all the other boys at this school are ass holes that think their parents have more money than god and that they can just flaunt their money and i will want to have sex with them. i am still a virgin, but everyone thinks im this huge slut becasue a couple guys made a rumor that i had sex with an entire lacrosse team because i wouldnt get with them. now they have made up another rumor that i am hooking up with this teacher, and all the girls are talking about me behind my back, even to the teacher! he asked me to just lay low for a while which sucks because now i have no one to talk to about all of this. my self condfidence has gone down the drain and even my roomate bitches about me to this teacher, even though she knows that we are close...he is the one who told me. i would never want to have any kind of relationship with this teacher, but now, even my friend think that im a super slut. none of the girls in my grade like me, and all the guys want to hang out with me because they think that im going to put out...ive only ever kissed one person!!!!
a couple of days ago, as i was walking back to my dorm from lacrosse practice, some of the "lax bros" started throwing me back and forth and started putting their lacrosse sticks between my legs, i finally got away and just ran. it was so degrading...sometimes i wonder how these clean cut, good family boys ended up acting this way. its terrifying that my life could change so much in a matter of four years.....my life sucks
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Andrew
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