Seriously, my life really sucks. You know why? Cos I got no life. I am 16. For the past 4 years of my teenhood, I have been slacking around, being a joker and very lonely. I appear as though I am someone with lots of life cos I am handsome, cool and charismatic. I thought I would have lots of life when I was 12. I thought I would be the popular guy in school, the one with lots of girlfriend, the gang leader, the one who enjoys the most of his teenhood. But I was wrong!! Conversely, I was the one being bullied, I was the one who endured all sort of physical and mental and psychological torture. It's like wtf man. I got no friends, and I am infamous in school for being the school joker. For example, I was the one who shook leg on stage due to nervousness, the GREAT FAILURE. My life is totally epic. In fact i have never had a girlfriend, never had sex, never had any friends just a few here and there and they are all loner cos I am one too...IN FACT I do not have any female friends!!!!!! Get it??? I dun communicate with the female friends at all bloody hell!!!My life is shyt and screwed. I just feel like blabbering here. Yeah. If only i could go back in time...maybe 12 years old...restart everything in life without regrets(childhood was alright), enthusiastic in learning taekwondo, been in an mixed school instead of all-boy school, become real fit and good looking, knows how to communicate well, join gang, got girlfriend, have lots of sex, do well in studies, viewed as a cool guy in school...I really wish for all of that seriously...............but it's kinda screwed u see. If I have a time machine, I really wish to go back in time and restart all over again, everything perfect cos my life so far is already so screwed I dunno how to live on in life. Whenever I feel old, I sort of like feel that life is meaningless already. In my youth, my life is already like this. Imagine your life when you're an adult...Work all day, worry about bills taxes jobs houses families children wife parents...there's no fun. It's extremely dull + extremely TOUGH. I'd rather die now. I gonna be real sad when I become an adult and look back in life...knowing how sucks my teenhood is when everyone is boasting how great their's were...Seriously i dun feel like living my life with such regrets. I know people will surely comment "STOP SAYING ALL THESE. JUST GET OUT OF YOUR COMPUTER AND GET A LIFE. NO USE BLABBERING HERE..." You think I wouldn't wish to do that? Everyday in school I try my hardest to be the cool guy that can get girls. I try my hardest not to get bullied or hated by my classmates. I try my hardest to learn to communicate with people. Everything to no avail. From what i know, childhood affect teenhood. Teenhood affect adulthood. Adulthood affect your entire life. So you can imagine, with such a regrets from my teenhood, how am I gonna live my life throughout? Without girlfriends, not knowing many girls, feeling sucky always...How shyt is my life. Whatsmore I am being despised by my family for various reasons. I wish to be a great guy but look at me now. I mean you know why I say that? Cos I know very well that I got the real potential to become a great cool and popular guy. I really got all the attributes, but it's just that from 12 years old to 15 years old, my character was SCREWED due to various reasons. Yeah the reasons are kinda ridiculous and pathetic. I was bullied, had all kind of shame, that's why i acted arrogant and joker. I was a joker because I was bullied and therefore cannot blend into any groups that's how I became one joker. Yeah. My life's screwed terribly. Just feel like killing myself. I right now feel like doing many things, for example join those journalists things, continue learning taekwondo, learn guitar, go to tuition classes, hanging out with friends, but...but I'm just so screwed to do all that. FK MY LIFE SERIOUSLY. Sometimes I just wish to stop living until the age of 20...then I could reincarnate and restart all over again,hoping for the better. JESUS, CAN U ACCEPT THAT? | |
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