Well I keep coming up with the same conclusion, lives more negative than positive. Recently I’ve been through a hard time.
I had a car accident on the 16th of December and I broke my femur quite badly, results from a CT scan have indicated the repair has failed. (Plate in my leg is moving) I’m ok with it, yea it’s going to take time but I should get better and in the meantime I can bend my femur to occupy myself lol.
My main negative outlook has started for other reasons, mainly a cheating girlfriend.
To cut a long story short we started dating in 2005, she lived with me and my parents (I’m 22)
my older sister got her a job at her place up London about 10 months ago. That’s when problems started, basically she stopped caring and started letting me down. I asked her if there’s someone else and she would always say no and that she loved me blar blar blar. We would get in fights all the time. Let’s skip a few months, I crashed ended up in hospital and she got with one of her co workers when I was in there, turns out she cheated on me months before. I didn’t really see her in hospital I thought we was still a couple at this point which confused the shit out of me. Well I got discharged on x-mus eve. My sister told me that she kissed some bloke at her Christmas party some nice news i got when I got home . So when she came over x-mus day I asked her if she kissed him and she said yes she did but they are just friends, I then asked her if she cheated on me and she smiled and said no! She was over for like 20mins and went. Turns out she went over his house to spend x-mus there. Anyway I get a text a few days saying it was all over and it has been over for months, thing is no one told me that, lol. All her lies came out in the end.
the thing is I put all my trust into her and would of done anything for her she was my life and well she’s put me through allot of crap.
I think about things as I’ve got a lot of time on my hands, lol.
I’ve come up with the conclusion the world isn’t positive, everyone will let you down to some extent so will I to others. People are terrible to each other, look at history and the present.
I’m finding it hard to come up with a reason to carry on apart from the people that I would hurt if I didn’t.
I don’t think I’m doing to bad per-say I’m quite successful but I just honestly think life’s not a positive thing overall it’s just pointless and that’s something I find trouble dealing with.
James | |
honestly, you probably already new she was unfaithful. and she did you a favor. I mean can you imagine if you had a kid or it was 10 yrs down the road and she told you.
i like to think that i am a good guy i grew up with a household full of women and have lots of women friends and in part that is why i am single. they are almost all whores even the gooody goody ones if you hang with them and just nice to them eventually they want to fuck you. because i have witnessed all this infedility i have trust issues.
if your girl spends a significant amount of time with anyone but you she is atleast thinking about fucking him. if she hangs out and gets one on one time with another guy she likes the attention. you fuck up and she is fucking that guy. that guy she wants you to hang out with, the one she thinks is witty and charming and trying to hook her friends up with she'd fuck him.
dont get me wrong are there faithful girls...yes. but if your a woman and read this. am i lying?...no.
so take a chance love again and maybe you'll find that keeper. or maybe that one that you love so much that when she makes that mistake you still want.
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