My life changed because of my desire to get an education. 20yrs ago at 16 I met a teacher who I asked for helped with my homework. To make a long story short, he abused me for 20years and the guilt and shame I felt cause me to lose all my teenage friends and family members - Who he claimed were no good for me. I know what you're thinking, How could someone abused you for this long, well, I was brained wash to think I was gay and he preyed on my innocence and silence to not speak out because of the shame. I tried leaving many times before but, I went back because I had know friends or family to turn to. They all thought I was just a weird loner. Little did they know I was screaming for help and acceptance. This ruined my life completely, almost 40yrs, can't keep a job too long, I have absolutely no trust for people in authority, I have made attempts to start new relationship which he would sabotage but spilling the gay lifestyle. I walk around confident and strong but I am such a devastated human being. So I try not to give my heart to people in fear of how they will use it against me.
Today, many people just think I am just an angry person who cannot get along with anyone.
I now feel a very sad sense of anger towards gay people and I know that it is wrong. Of all the things in the world, this was the last thing I wanted in my life. I was just a kid, trying to do the right thing, why couldn't he see that...
This really sucks