I'll tell you why my life sucks and wished I were dead. The whole time growing up, my family (every single one) did not want to have anything to do with me. I have found not one picture of me with my family maybe except for one. I never had anything go my way (not once) and if and when I shed a smile or laugh well, something comes along and screws it up. I've attempted suicide a couple of times (like who would care) right. I've been on my own for pretty much my whole life and no one had taught me nothing, I had to learn for myself. Got married and for only one maybe two weeks it went great, the rest of the 8 years, well I was treated like a dog and stabbed in the back. I have been mentally abused by my what is now my ex and been taken advantage of by my ex and others. No body wants me around ecept for what I can do for them. No one helps me at all no matter what but, they expect me to help them. I have felt all these years as a loser and a nobody,worthless. I feel as if everything and everbody would be happier if I were dead. I feel as though I'm ugly and stupid. I've been diagnosed as a phycotic person,social phobia,sleep problems,anxiety disorder,and some others along with some autism. I want to die so bad and get it over with so my miserable life would go away. I feel everyone would be happy.