well im 19 years old. im not good at much things i like to believe that my skills are drawing and computing. well i moved out of home to my grand parents when i was 16. this was shit but i had a group of friends multiple lovers. i smoke weed i smoke it with the few friends i have. this causes me no problems its just the area im in. well i moved bk come around christmas time. and my parents started to break up. my dad blamed it on me, my mom got support for the house and food and stuff. well now they are back together and hes moving back in, in a week. i cant stand my dad hes a prick and i hate him, and he hates me and i dont care that he hates me but the fact is hes coming back and i can live her when he does. theres always something he wants me to do when its something hes done himself i gotta clean it. i get on with my mom fine we have our problem but we get on. well my problem is my dad is coming home and im going to the extent of declaring my self homeless for i dont have to do this. i dont no wht to do. i need to go. ive been depressed for a year and i dont take pills because they just make u worse everyone noes that but still takes em. im english and i need advice how should i go of getting my convidents back and how can i get out of this house and get my own place with out knocking some one up. not like i have the means to anyway. i cant find a job because of this stupid credit crunch this pointless war has put us in. and anyone just gonna say oh u havnt got it that bad i no its not that bad but at one point my life was eventful i had lots of friends and effort for people and all tat has changed. its sad but i even feel that i depend on the internet cuz thats another thing that makes me happy. but im not truely happy. for me to be happy i need my own place and need a girl friend whos willing to try making a real relationship. i want to have children i wnt to get a nice house but i feel im doomed to be a dole dosser because i have nothing behind me
and i cnt just go back to college because i not get my job seekers money and i this money i got nothing already i cant afford to go bk to college and get nothing. so come one then give me some advice u cud change my life around and that is a good feeling to anyone. them just out to judge why u on this site seriously. looks like they found there happyness making people feel worse than they already do so ass holes try it :) | |